Monday, June 30, 2008
8:08 pm
I hate it when I'm not in control.
I hate it when my thoughts get pulled along by other things I don't want to contemplate.
I hate it when I'm not sure what I want.
I hate it when I'm not as brave as I think I should be.
I hate it when I'm don't have an answer when I need one.
I hate it when the answer's probably there and I'm just too stubborn to let myself fall and accept that answer.
I hate it when I'm annoyed at the one person I vehemently do not want to be annoyed at.
I hate it when I need to chastise myself after all the above has made me forget about my friend who definitely needs more attention now than anyone else I know because of her loss.
I hate it when I don't know what to say, what to do for that friend when I so desperately want to do anything for her (because without her, I'd only be L2. And it's nowhere as amusing as L3. Yeah... our logic. She'd understand).
And YOU.
What do you want?
I'm apologising- hell, I'm grovelling.
I'm not psychic. I don't have the answers you want to hear.
Can't you just let go of your own pride and just tell me what you want?
What? WHAT? WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?
WHATDOYOUWANT? WHATDOYOUWANT? WHATDOYOUWANT?
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL DO YOU FUCKING WANT?????
I fucking hate my life.
* * * * *
Anyway, on a happier note:
Junjo Romantica (Pure Romance)
Oh gosh. The manga was funny already. Seeing the characters in action in the anime somehow made it even more hilarious.
And, wow, there's enough angst to satisfy the angst-junkie in me.
*A little warning*
It's a BL story, meaning it's yaoi.
If you don't know what that means, it's better you don't watch it, so I won't get blamed for whatever trauma you get from the anime.
Episode 1
Episode 2
Episode 3
Episode 4
Episode 5
Episode 6
Episode 7
Episode 8
Episode 9
Episode 10
Episode 11
Episode 12 (end?)
Labels: Anime, Manga
Sunday, June 29, 2008
2:02 pm
Your result for The Commonly Confused Words Test ...
English Genius
You scored 100% Beginner, 93% Intermediate,
100% Advanced, and 80% Expert!
You did so extremely well, even I can't find a word to describe your excellence! You have the uncommon intelligence necessary to understand things that most people don't. You have an extensive vocabulary, and you're not afraid to use it properly!
Way to go!
Take the test
here. Answers available at the end.
Haha.
Am pleased.
I don't know where we're heading; we're halfway to nowhere.
Labels: Phrases
Saturday, June 28, 2008
3:26 am
On one hand, there's everything I could need.
On the other, there's everything I want.
And I'm stuck in the middle, confused and frustrated like hell.
Damn you for putting me in this predicament.
Friday, June 27, 2008
3:16 pm
I've finally posted the new CSI:Miami fanfiction that was completed last Tuesday.
As usual, I'll use the excuse of my laziness and procrastinating nature. And that I'm almost half-asleep by the time work ended to do anything productive when I get home.
Type: One-shot
Words: 360
Pairing: Eric/Ryan (HardyBoys)
Warnings: Slashy hints. Minor spoilers for Season 5 episodes 14 to 16 and 18.
Rating: PG-13.
Disclaimer:
CBS, Anthony E. Zuiker, Carol Mendelsohn and Ann Donahue own CSI:Miami. I don't own anything related, save for some avatars.
Summary: Eric Delko's stubborn determination was not the only thing that kept him away from more screw-ups.
( Back on Track )
Also available on my website. Check the sitemap if you ever get lost.
Now that all the crossposting is done, I can breathe easy.
It's such a tedious work, checking all the HTML codes, hyperlinks...
Phew!
Labels: Creations, Fanfictions, One-shots, TV shows
Sunday, June 22, 2008
1:45 pm
Why is it that you can say just one sentence and it turns out to be the one thing I needed to hear?
Guess I've underestimated the hold you still have on me.
Sorry, Phoenix, I'm too tired (and lazy) to think of something long-winded to blog about. And what I'm blogging about today is something that we've talked about last night.
Anyway, Nix was saying that it was getting lonely after we graduated from Polytechnic and I replied along the lines of "What, it took you three months to feel that? I felt it like, two weeks after graduating!"
So I had another (minor) rant about everyone being impossible to contact or being totally unhelpful. Let me demonstrate what I meant by "unhelpful".
You see, I'm very forgiving (it's the forgetting part I have a problem with, but that's not the point here), so I'll overlook the part about not knowing this "friend" had a boyfriend until I read about it from someone else's blog, and that it had been a few months already.
Yes, it's a stupid and inconsequential thing to get pissy about. It's not like they're tying the knot or something, but friends tell each other these things. I've even told her things that I know meant little significance to her.
Thinking that I shouldn't complain so much and instead be more initiative about keeping a friendship afloat, I smsed this friend and asked her if she had downloaded the new Firefox 3 because she uses it too. I thought it'll be a sufficient opening for a conversation.
All she replied was, "No"
There wasn't a fullstop, too. How convenient of one-word answers.
Naturally, I got annoyed, and wondered how things can be so different when it's no longer natural to see each other almost everyday of the week. To think that I've considered her to be one of my closer friends in my diploma course.
Sometimes I have no idea why I even bother with such people.
Friday, June 20, 2008
10:06 pm
I have solved one of my latest mysteries.
I dream in colour.
Haha.
No, really. Dreams are hazy, I know, but I remember seeing colours.
Anyway~ There's a new anime!
The original manga is by Minekura Kazuya-sensei!
I've been waiting for months for this.
BUS GAMER
Episode 1
Episode 2
Episode 3 (end)
Labels: Anime, Manga, Minekura
Saturday, June 07, 2008
3:41 pm
I have a confession to make.
I am perfectly capable of tripping over my own feet.
True story.
Oh, and my legs tangle up when I try to swim, which is one of the reasons why I gave up learning to.