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Saturday, December 31, 2005

10:40 pm

well, here we are. on the last night of the last day of the year 2005.
in less than 2 hour's time, it will be the turn of a new year.
2006..
what are my hopes and wishes for the new year?
hmm..

1.
can i have lesser (or better, none) of those weird looking beetles, flies and alien-looking insects flying into my room?
i have already lost count of how many of those i had suffocated in a cup with insecticide.
and if that cockroach that sneaked into my room a month ago hadn't already crawled out, it'd better by now or i might freak out should i ever see it again.

2.
my parents should let me watch the countdown concert on scv channel 54 instead of watching some stupid documentary on china.
and if the singing really sucks, you could just ignore it like i did everytime i had to endure all your news channel crap.

3.
maybe i should be informed whether my parents will be back for breakfast/lunch/dinner if they ever went out?
i don't want to end up waiting for them til 3pm and had to succumb to cooking instant noodles like i did today.

4.
hopefully my new classmates in my LOM diploma class won't be as materialistic, spoilt and pampered, and immature like certain person in my poly course class is.
and if they could take sacarsm and be more understanding about the fact that because i have a bf means that i have less time for them even if studies sometimes do come first.
hey, i don't want to neglect any of the important people in my life. it's difficult to balance all these things, but i'm trying to make it work.

5.
i feel that i should be treated like an adult. i mean, i'm going to be 18 in less than 3 months and it's going to make me feel very mentally imbalanced if anyone at all treats me like i'm still 16.
or any age younger than that.
i know i can be independent, it's just that i don't have a lot of chance.

6.
time is really limited thing but it would be good if i could cut out any free time to find a part-time job or a tutoring one to get extra pocket money.
although my mother told me that should i feel that i don't have enough to spend i could tell her, how much she gives me every month is actually sufficient for all my expense in school and still have around $40 extra for my handphone bill.
it's just that after all that there's none left for other things like birthday presents for people, occasional entertainment stuff and it's been a long time since i bought a good book to read, let alone draw a decent picture.
although i doubt i could have any free time for any of these =.=

7.
someone please bestow me with more perseverence!
i can't seem to get any personal projects done (eg. tidy my table, tidy the pile of.. things.. on the floor, write my story..) and although it is said to be an aries trait, that's not much of a reassurance.
i don't believe in all that. i believe that if i really try, i could change that part of me. i know that it is possible
i have tried and succeeded. sometimes.
crap.. i seriously need more motivation.

8.
although i wish every year to conquer my self-consciousness and build more self-confidence, it don't seem to work even if it did improve quite a lot.
i really need the confidence to be able to speak out in front of a bunch of people, regardless of whether i know them or vice-versa!!

9.
ok, this is getting a little long but what the heck, it's the last night of the last day of the year plus this is my blog.
if any of you are bored by now (it's a wonder that u read til no.9 by the way), there is a choice to stop reading.
anyways, i want to still keep in contact with the people in my secondary school!
i know i've stopped talking to a lot of my primary school friends even though we have each other's messenger contact, i don't want this to happen to my secondary school friends.
I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!! YOU PEOPLE MAKE MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE A LIVING HELL!!
nah, joking haha.. you guys make it all the better and made the memories worthwhile.

10.
last but definitely not least..
less diseases!! less wars!! reduce porverty!! less sufferrings!! stop cutting down the amazon rainforest already!! fill up that gap in the ozone layer!! stop smoking you people stink (literally)!! less littering!!
and even if there are people who aimed for the top prizes, we really wanted to help those in need therefore we donate!!
so whoever is planning to embezzle 90% of our donations, don't.
just don't.

2005 has been a good year, excluding the poly classmate factor, and so let us wave farewell to it and try harder to make the world a better place in 2006.

gosh, i'm getting sappy.
argh.. to heck with it.

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

10:39 pm

personally, i think that i woke up just a bit too early today for nothing.
after i lent my bf my laptop, i went to the burger king at bedok interchange to do up the principles of management project with the rest of the group.

it being very far for a near cripple person to travel from woodlands to bedok, zy didn't make it for the discussion.
maybe it's a little forgivable but, oh well.
we were supposed to meet at 10.30 but i was late for 14 minutes which was ok even though i do not like to be late for anything, because i knew that the rest would be much later than me.
tf came 2 minutes after me, jill came at 11 plus, janice at almost 12 noon (she was trying to get a cab. hello? if it was so difficult to get a cab or bus at your place, can't you make the effort to wake up earlier? i could, so why couldn't you?) and phoenix came 15 minutes after that.

i think phoenix has a sleeping disorder or something because she just can't seem to sleep at a more normal time other than at 9.30 in the morning.
but jill has the worst case. much worse than zy, who went for a minor operation for an old injury on his leg.

this girl, had a blood infection all of a sudden and had a major rash outbreak when she went to malaysia a few days ago. blames it on the failure of her memory to not eat eggs, as warned by her doctor or someone, yet she order fried kuay tiao with eggs.
and the outbreak stroke her within 30 mins after she finished her meal.
now she had to stay away from eggs and seafood for 2 months, which is quite a torture added to her red marks all over her arms and legs (giving her no choice but to wear long sleeve shirts and long pants) because chinese new year is in 1 month's time.
meaning she practically had to fast throughout the whole festive season.

i am just so relieved that my immune system is nothing like hers.

maybe it isn't such a bad day today after all.
i saw mx at parkway when janice and i accompanied jill to get a birthday present for her friend (tf went of halfway, says he's sleepy. i prefer to assume that it was boring for him to socialise with the majority gender of the class).
not much really changed for mx, her eye bags are still as dark, she is still as bouncy and she still hugged the same as the last time i saw her.
and when i went to the marine parade library after janice and jill went home, i saw sunita!!
haha.. she's doing some volunteering (or maybe not, i'm not very sure) work at the library.. putting books on the shelves and things like that.
still get excited when i see her even though she lives just 1 storey below me (we live in the same block) and that she didn't start out to be the best people in my first impression but perceptions do change when you get to know someone personally.

sigh..
i really really miss the people in my secondary school..
and i'm even starting to remember the redundant people like ernest, back in secondary school..
something must be wrong with me.

me thinks that it should be possible to get my scribbles up onto my website by tonight.
and i might have some time to finish up the other sections of the site, which means..

the website may actually be up and working on 1 january 2006 (which meets my schedule by the way haha..)!
isn't anyone going to be proud of me?
i know i am^_^

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

3:07 pm

ways to spend a term break:

1.
get together with old friends and have a good ramdom chat in any random place.

2.
catch a movie with your bf/gf or any other close friends.

3.
curling into any comfortable postition is the most comfortable place in the house and have a mug of milo/chocolate beside you while reading any good book that you can lay your hands on and listening to your favourite cds playing on and on and on..

4.
playing online games (eg. MapleStory) late into the night while having a bottomless mug of coffee beside your laptop (or computer, if you don't have a laptop like me).

5.
watching tv shows (or vcds/dvds) late at night while eating a big bowl of hot, spicy and instant noodles then waking up at 11am the next morning.

well, i wasn't privileged enough to complete all the items that was listed.
i had to tidy my room and clear out my old clothes, reorganise my closet, do something about the.. mess.. on my floor

*wow.. i see a modem in the background plus.. 2 empty mineral water bottles?!*

then read through the newspapers that i bought yesterday at Borders to see if i can find any article useful enough for my macroecons project and if i have extra time left, i might start writing the new story that i had an inspiration for since last week, play more MapleStory, or go work on my website or else i won't get it up and going on the planned date, which is.. 1 january 2006!!

now where am i going to find that kind of american time??

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

7:14 pm

woke up 1 hour earlier than the past few days to watch King Kong with my bf at lido.
nice movie, not bad for a remake (most people have the perception that remake movies are not as good as their predecessors).
naomi watts kinda remind me of nicole kidman. looks a little alike, if u ask me, but i think that nicole kidman is more suited for roles of matured women so naomi watts fits in the character, i guess.

talk about a cold xmas.
here in singapore we get, not only cold, but a wet xmas as well.
just when it felt as if it was getting warmer, rain starts to pour all over again. i swear my fingers had frozen just yesterday.

and i am not one who thinks that money is everything.
if you didn't know that 11 months ago, you should have by now.

so there.

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Monday, December 26, 2005

9:36 pm

if only every other day could be like this.
calm, quiet, and having 9 to 10 hours of sleep every night.
oh, and when the only time i can spend with my bf was not just when he needed to send me home.

after the said 9 hours of sleep last night, i went to play pool with my bf at the pool centre beside katong centre (the new one, please don't confuse it with katong shopping centre).
and after playing the "sport" for almost 1 year, i have came to the conclusion that i had already realised the moment i started learning:

i so freaking suck at pool.

if it didn't cost so much to play the sport, i would have found time to play it now and then to prevent my third class skills from embarrassing myself.
although there were rare lucky streaks when i come this close to winning.
like i said, rare. rare and lucky.

while i was having dinner with my family, there was a documentary on discovery channel called "Who Killed JFK?" the mystery surrounding the assasination of the famous and much-loved ex-president of USA.
which reminds me, i missed the episodes that talked about how singapore picked herself up after WWII and the events that happened during our pioneer years.
damn.. i so regret for not remembering to watch.

anyways, that wasn't the point.
the show was about how some specialists tried to use footages of the public, who had filmed the part where president Kennedy paraded down a street in an open top car and was in the end shot, to find out who had killed the president, and how many people were actually involved in the assasination.
there was actually footage on the moment he was shot in the head. the person who filmed it must have felt freaking lucky; that single film must have been much sought after by the investigation team and researchers thus giving the guy some level of fame just by catching that historical yet gruesome moment.

as sadistic as i could be, watching the blood literally burst from a real person's head isn't as exhilerating as reading the same scene from mangas or watching it in animes or movies.
we're talking unscripted (maybe not on the part of the assasinator/s) murder.
watching it happen in an actual place on an actual living person feels a little sick, even to me.

while we were watching the documentary, my father asked me if i knew who was JFK.
i forgot his full name but i do know that he was a president of USA.
hey, at least i know his last name.
and then my father was like, "kids.. they only know the names of their idols."

it's not that i'm only interested in idols, present fashion, the "in" things and stuff. history and the mysteries created also appeal to me.
as much as concerts and cds gets me high, major history events, conspiracies, conflicts in wars and ancient civilisations get me glued to documentary channels and Horrible History books (which are, by the way, a good read. try Horrible Sciences too. the books in all the different series are factual yet entertaining at the same time).

must be that part in my upper secondary school days when i studied history acting on me.
either that, or i'm weird.

yes, i think i will settle on the fact that i am weird.

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

10:33 pm

i think i'm going to try to create the website with dreamweaver, as suggested by my bf.
hopefully it works this time, if not, i'm going to give up on it altogether.
nah.. maybe for a short while only, if it does happens, because it just feels like an itch when i give up without trying everything to get whatever i want to do done.

anyways, i've put the Flip Flap (the xmas present from my bf) on my table.
it is good working condition, thus the "flapping" which resulted in the blur of its leaves.

i had a hard time taking the "plant" out from its case.
as nice as the case looked, i was this close so just smashing it apart.
when i finally got it opened and took out the user manual (do we actually need a manual for this kind of thing?! seriously, i would like to meet the person who needs a manual for this), there were the steps in how to take flip flap out of its case.

plain and simple.

so i guess that's the new logic now:
when you figure out how to do something, someone hands you the instructions on how to do what you had just accomplished =_=;

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

7:05 pm

sometimes, perserverence just isn't really my thing.

I GIVE UP ON THE WEBSITE CREATING CRAP.

i am so asking for help.

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trying to create a website on geocities to put my writings.

this is such a bitch.

i think i'm getting a headache from staring at the screen since 5 hours ago playing MapleStory and then making a site from scratch now.
but to heck with it!!
i'm gonna persevere and get the site up and running within this 3 days!!

would you please wish me luck?

ps.
happy thanksgiving^_^
oh and my dearest pauline, please contact me the next time you're coming to singapore!!

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Friday, December 23, 2005

10:12 pm

YAY!!! TERM TEST IS FINALLY OVER!!
WOOTZ!! ^_^
maple, here i come!!~

haha.. that being the good thing at the moment, but on the dark side?
i'm only confident on my stats paper and maybe my macroecons..
hopefully i won't fail overall *smiles weakly*

by the way..
happy birthday, georgina!!!~
lol..

went with ky and her bf, fx, to orchard to look for an xmas present for my bf.
they wanted presents also (that's very nice of you 2 =_= nah just joking haha..) so i treated fx breakfast at long john's and bought ky a manga (D.N.Angel book11).
kinokuniya don't really have what i have in mind of a funny/lame book but i found one that would just have to make do for it (Great Lies to Tell Small Kids-- weird stuff haha.. go check it out) after walking in circles in kinokuniya and scanning through almost all the books in the same shelf until i found the book that's worth my buying.

so i left the 2 to their dating (they went to watch Narnia) and went back to marine parade.
met my bf, got our lunches and i finally bought mayday's zhi zu album.
wahahaha.. now i have 2 new cds ^_^ happiness yay~

went to his place to watch Chicken Little.
although it wasn't a bad movie, the story isn't strong enough to be worth the money to watch in a cinema.

you know there's this toy that works by solar energy and keep nodding or shaking their heads?
my bf got the plant version for my xmas present.

nice.
i have no idea where to put the "plant" in my room.
haha.. oh well, it's the thought that counts.

unlike someone..
didn't even read though the book, just took a look at the cover and said, "you should know i don't like to read books.."
as if it was a 1000-paged novel =_=*
every page has less than 5 sentences and it didn't take long to finish the book so there isn't any chance to fall asleep in between..
keep telling me that you're stressed so i gave you a lame/stupid book for entertainment and this was the only thing you can say =_=

i am so going to be very strict and critical of the next thing that you are ever gonna buy for me.

BLEAH.

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Friday, December 16, 2005

9:07 pm

tired tired tired..

i finished jane austen's "pride and prejudice" yesterday afternoon and returned it to phoenix today.
if only i had more time i would have finished it in 1 day because i hate it when the momentum of the story keeps getting stopped just so i could do my tutorials or when it was too late for me to read on.

all in all, it was a nice story.
most of the girls in it were very superficial and materialistic (reminds me a little of janice lol), plus the protagonist's mother acted as if she really had a screw loose.
but the more entertaining parts were the smart, sarcastic and cynical conversation between the the 2 main character's and also between the protagonist's parents.
mr. bennet's sacarsm was so full of intelligent haha.. i wonder why he had married that weird woman for his wife..

*sigh* makes me wanna watch the movie, but oh well, i'm sure the movie will be an insult to the original story so.. scratch that thought.

BA2 today was ok, compared to how an ass the tutor was behaving in the first few weeks.
i have a heavy suspicion that he doesn't know how to use the overhead projector.
i mean, like hello? can't he tell that the words are too damn puny for us at the last row to see? and he didn't bothered to ask if we could see it at the back
=_= (...)

so i ended up copying whatever that was on the tranparencies from tf.
wonder how he saw the text.. super eyes i tell you.

perfect eye-sight, as proclaimed by him.

met my bf after school so that he could accompany me to katong shopping centre (the older one) because i wanted to bind my BA2 notes.
makes it neater and easier for me to study as compared to stapled notes all over the place.
then we had lunch at the food court in the basement and as usual, i ate the chicken rice there. i don't know why but it's the only stall that i buy food from if i eat at KSC.
after which we went to study but i couldn't continue for much longer because i was really tired so he sent me home earlier than usual.

*sigh*
if only i could stay longer but i was running out of energy lol..
maybe during the term break? *grins*

and so my parents came back from their dinner outside/dating with my dinner:
tom yam ban mee from the basement food court in parkway.

now i'm sitting in front of my laptop, blogging, eating, and chatting on msn messenger at the same time lol..
gonna sleep soon after i'm done with the noodles.
hopefully nothing unsettling happens tomorrow morning when i go to bed with a stomach full with the mixture of chilli oil and cold fruit juice.

i hope.

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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

10:06 pm

today was so down right horribly sucky.
and it wasn't even because of the japanese mcq test.
it was already bad enough that i had to wake myself up at 7am when i slept at 1am.

last night phoenix said she was really drained and was going to skip all the lessons after her french tutorial.
jill had a very upset stomach since 2 days ago and it started to take effect last night and she couldn't make it to school today.

hearing these, janice started thinking that maybe she shouldn't come to school too.
hey, that's nice. leave me all alone. nice.
and to think that she had decided to come and even swore on it yesterday.

so she sms-ed me in the middle of my japanese tutorial and told me that she's not coming to school!
which was why i was the only group member present for MBS tutorial.
i seriously don't give a #$%& about the participation marks so not to worry about it, because i didn't answer any of the questions *woohoo*

the sound of the participation marks going down the drain.. *whoosh*

so i spent the day with eunice and priya.
we were at the library and eunice was trying to study while priya attempted to do the same but failed miserably at it and i was sleeping the break away.

during the Stats lecture, we had to pass around the attendance file and sign our names to show that we were present and as usual, i would sign for a few people who skipped the lecture and had asked for my help to take their attendance.
so i signed for phoenix and poor jill (who is at this moment still has a funny feeling in her stomach) and i left janice's slot empty.
what, like, 1 absence won't fail her attendance component anyways.

so i passed the file up to the class behind us and those guys were stupid enough to pass the file back down our section instead of passing it to the other sections of the lecture theatre.
worse still, if they wanted to pass it back to us, there is this phrase called "excuse me"?
i think all the chair kicking was just totally redundant?
in the end they threw the file down to my row.

like WTF? yeah, that just shows how intellectually-sound these.. beings.. are.
you think you're so cool, laughing like a whole bunch of monkeys up there, it just goes to show how shallow and immature you are.
i was so close to turning around and giving them the eye or the finger or just swear at them.
wth is wrong with tp guys these few days?!

met with my bf after lesson so he could walk me home.
but before that, i had to wait alone for him for 20 minutes at the bus stop.

nah, i'm not pissed.
considering how my day went, i didn't mind waiting for him at all. lol.
i had my mp3 to keep me company anyways haha..

see, i mentioned you haha..
so you can stop complaining that i don't mention you enough in my blog lol..

days left until term test: 5

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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

9:03 pm

well, after a very fast and short PoM lecture, and a very noisy and irritated study session with fh (i have somewhat cooled down but that don't mean that i won't get pissed with you again, fh. you better watch out), there was Stats tutorial!!!

we got back our 1st class assignment and i got 19.5/20 haha^_^
if not for a careless mistake of writing the formula wrongly i would have gotten full marks haha..
yay^^ happy happy^^

passed zy his thumbdrive back with a few of my english songs and you know what this guy said?
"good thing you passed it back today 'coz i'm not coming to school tomorrow."
so he's just going to skip all of tomorrow's lessons altogether?!
=_= (...)

went to parkway with jill after school because she wanted to buy x'mas cards and send it to the whole class (excluding a few people that she despise.. yeah..).
while we were in marks and spencers, we were like gawking over shelves after shelves of chocolates.
you have to see it for yourself, there was like the ordinary truffles, mints, and those wrapped in aluminium foils, even white chocolate shaped in snowmans and dancing shoes but i found one box that has chocolate in the shape of lipsticks.
jill got quite high just by looking at them lol.. it even has colouring to make it look red.
haha we were practically drooling and was this tempted to just get a box and savour it at home.

after much consideration, we decided to have Old Chang Kee.
jill has a big mouth.
she stuffed 1 fried squid at a time into her mouth. i am seriously amazed.
jill, that was so unlady-like. haha..

did my japanese online quiz just now and used 3 minutes and 47 seconds out of the 10 minutes allowed and got 18/20.
was it supposed to be difficult???
ky told me it was and that she exceed the time given.
ok.. did she do the wrong quiz or something?

which reminds me, i have an japanese mcq test tomorrow morning.
gotta start revising now..

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Monday, December 12, 2005

10:25 pm

well..
turns out that Stats tutorial was tomorrow and not today!! it was Econs tutorial today..
and i stupidly did my Stats tutorial homework instead of Econs, only to realise my stupid stupid mistake this morning while i was brushing my teeth!!!
gosh! how dumb can i get?!
*sigh*
but it turns out ok since my Econs tutor don't check homework. *whew*

phoenix went and did a tattoo on her right shoulder blade!!
haha..
it's a chinese character for the word "phoenix" but i think it would look nicer if it was a little bigger and done in traditional chinese instead of simplified chinese.
but then again, it don't really matter to me because i'm never ever getting a tattoo.
it just "feels" too pain and gory and it would most probably look horrible on the old saggy skin in 50 years to come when we are all 60+ years old uncles and aunties (LOL).

the old computer is still a little conked up and my father is still fiddling around with the language settings and it seems IMPOSSIBLE to install the norton antivirus.

so..
if the computer should break down because he installed too many internet security yet refused to install the norton antivirus, i can expect a new computer MUAHAHAHA.. besides, that old computer is getting obsolete.
it has a 256RAM. 256!!!
it loads so so slow and it so totally lags LAGS when you open more than 3 windows.
=_=lll

oh, and at school, jill uncovered a shocking 3-way relationship!!
and all 3 people involved are guys!!! (OH NO!! haha..)
it's just that we always see tf and zy together and some other times he was with fh.
also, we saw a few pictures in fh's handphone that have the 3 of them together. haha.. nah, i'm just trying to spread unnecessary rumours lol..

ate some strawberries just now. not very sour but still..
it is strawberries. how sweet can it get?!

anyways..
homework out of the way, i shall be a kind-hearted classmate and help zy transfer some songs.
he needed some english rock songs sung by female artistes because he was going to translate it to chinese for his friend who is having a "band" thing going on.
oh well, i am a kind girl.

LOL.

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

10:29 pm

another week coming to an end..
time sure passes quickly.
and to think that last year round this month i had just started working.

my father came back this morning around 5-6am from a business trip in china.
he rang the door bell and woke me up for a while but i slept back right after.
stupid me forgot to change the alarm time in one of my alarms and so it woke me up at 9am.
turned it off and continued to sleep to 11am lol..

fiddled around with the old desktop for a while before lunch.
it spoiled a week ago and although i got my bf to reformat it, it's still giving us trouble.
not like i care because i have my laptop and it's good enough for me haha..

went to the library with my bf and completed my BizStats tutorial homework although there were a handful of questions that i have no idea how to solve.
argh.. to heck with it.

lucky him got a new handphone. sony ericsson k600i.
but i still insist that nokia 6680 is way better.
even if it is more expensive.. i mean, the functions are better and let's not forget the point that nokia is user-friendly.
even if it does hang, that's definitely better than sony ericsson phones which keep getting spoiled (please correct me if i'm wrong). compare the repair fees and stuff, nokia will be worth the money in the long run.

but, he still took k600i because it's cheaper in the short run =_=

i'm getting back the stats test from 2 weeks ago. hopefully i can get full marks haha..

should i trade in my handphone while it still has some value and get a new one?
or wait until the contract ends 9 months later?

hmm..

argh.. headache again.. why in the world am i so prone to it..
sleep would be a good remedy *nods*

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Saturday, December 10, 2005

10:33 am

why oh why am i blogging so early?!

well, i was hoping i could sleep all the way to noon but my @#$%^&*! biological clock woke me up at 10. considering that i slept at 1am, i had only 9 hours of sleep.
sounds good enough but the corner of my eyes are still red and have not reduced.

*sigh*
the wonders of my biological clock.

so this explains why i am already eating my breakfast (or maybe brunch) and blogging away now lol.. no harm done i guess, since i'm not one of those who would wake up so late anyways.

sl had enlightened us yesterday when a few of us went to the airport to study yesterday.
what?! yesterday?!
why am i saying this now?
haha.. guess i forgot to blog that info last night.. *heehee*

anyways, yesterday i went to the airport with a few of my secondary school friends, sl, georgina, bh and samantha, to study. and on the way to MacD, sl, the CYA (haha.. Changi Youth Ambassador. don't volunteer for that job. the pay is VERY low) told us this piece of valuable info:

the pilots at terminal 2 are very good-looking

well, girls, you heard her.
anyone who's interested please proceed to terminal 2 lol..

anyways, so we were studying at MacD. it kinda reminded me of last year when we were all cramming for our O' Level:

sl would be talking crap, i would be crapping along, or sleeping, or doing some (or maybe a lot) academically-unconstructive things, salmon-tartar-sauce (haha.. my nickname for samantha) would look at us and go, "uh.. ok.." and bh would be reading some english stuff while begin to stone after a while and georgina would be so engrossed in her studies that it would take us like, 10 secs, to make her realise that we were talking to her lol..

*sigh*
guess i still miss my sec school friends a lot.
it was always very difficult to go out together because a few of us are in poly while the rest are in jc so our holidays are not the same and due to our work load, our free time is very restricted.

it was already bad enough that bh and samantha are in jc, the worst is when sl, georgina and i are in the same campus, the same school and yet we hardly see one another in school.
except for that time when i saw georgina in the lift lol..

oh well, life has its way of making people meet and parting those people.
at least we still stay in touch^_^

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Friday, December 09, 2005

8:28 pm

was there ever a point in time
when you are afraid of your own self?

fear of what you might say
and the things that you should but did not say?
fear of what you might do
and the things that you should but did not do?
fear that you would subconscienciously hurt those you'd never want to hurt
yet realising that you had, only when what was done cannot be undone?

then, the truth finally sinks in
that you can never be what you wanted to be
that it is difficult to do what you wanted to do
that time is never on your side for you to give what you wanted to give
that trust is underated in this era
and so in the end
you fear your own existence

do you?

accounts tutorial was too boring..
so my thoughts ran off on their own lol..

for one, i got into Logistics Operations Management and so did a few of my classmates like julia, klara, tf.. (i'm sure there're more, it's just that i can't remember all of them lol)

so..
from next semester onwards.. no more janice *woohoo* no more valerie *woohoo* no more may *woohoo* and except for tf, no more spastic retarded guys like fh *woohoo* lol..

secondly, MapleStory was finally "playable", after all these time, and i got 2 Marks of Beta because i created 2 characters in Cassiopeia.

i think i screwed my Japanese "show & tell".
i still had the tendency to read from my cue cards and i don't think that i reached the time requirement of 3-4 minutes.

*sigh*

tutorials to finish..
Japanese MCQ test to study..
mid-sem test to study..
MacroEcons project to research on..
i feel so drained..

i think i need a holiday.
and a long one at that.
yeah, school has only started for less than 6 weeks and i'm already demanding for a holiday.
one word to describe this?

PATHETIC.

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if i could
i would

but life has too many restrictions
and too little time
the path is never smooth
while we pave it with regret in the footsteps that we leave behind

if only i could
i most certainly would
yet there is only so little that i can do

if..

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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

11:36 pm

STUPID MAPLESTORY PATCH!!!

after i had patched version 0.19, and was waiting to login to take my Mark of Beta, they had to do server maintainence and us players had to download version 0.20 when they are done!!!

WTF?!

i stayed up so i could login and take the item and now this?!
i could have just went to bed!!

SHEESH!!

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i am seriously turning into a monster soon.

i am so tied up with school work and projects that i barely have enough sleep and this was dragging the corner of my eyes wider and wider while my eye bag sinks deeper and darker.
as if that's not bad enough, it's been almost 1 month since the last time i cut my toenails.
one day it's gonna turn into talons and i can start catching rodents with it.

LOL.

and yesterday i had to squat on the floor to paste 17 pictures onto a board for today's Japanese cds presentation.
it was so hot because if i had turned on the fan, it would have blown the pictures all over the place, so in the end i had to tie up my wet-just-bathed-not-yet-dried-hair.
maybe, soon, grubs will start living in my hair.
either that or i will start to have the worst headache in the whole of my 17 years of life, which is very bad because i am very prone to headaches.

also, i have started to fall asleep on the bus since a few weeks ago.
this was something that hardly ever happens to me. EVER.

i am like just SO tempted to forget about all my work and project and just go to sleep.

yes, sleep.
all the way to next morning.
maybe even skip tomorrow's lessons.
or maybe sleep my life away.

wait.

if the whole of my life is going to be slept away, what's the point?!

*swears at own stupidity and starts to do homework*

sheesh!
when i'm done with homework on weekdays, i still need to do my projects on weekends!!

i seriously have no life.. *sobs*

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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

4:45 pm

shades of black
shades of white
these are all the things i feel inside

i am pink
i am green
i am everything that's in between

heard this somewhere from a handphone advertisement (i think it's ASUS).
cute ad.. but they stopped playing it already. *sadded*

oh well, gotta go train my character in Cassiopeia before going to bath and i have to finish up my cds project by tonight.

I WANNA HAVE A LONG NAP!!!~

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Monday, December 05, 2005

9:47 pm

the new world, Cassiopeia, in MapleStory, has opened up!! yay^_^

but i still have projects to do..
guess i can't play much of it yet.. *sigh*

oh well..

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Friday, December 02, 2005

8:55 pm

i was 10 mins late for my 1st lesson (BizAccounts2 lecture) today!
the stupid 8.10 bus didn't come and i sat for half an hour at the bus stop this morning until the next bus came at 8.30. wth..

what a surprise, my BA2 tutor was less of a pain today.
fh on the other hand, was predictably idiotic as usual.
he kept asking if the short quiz we'll be having next week is the first even though we already had it just last week. =_=;
the tutor suddenly became concerned with what secondary school fh came from, and exclaimed, "you're what, 17 already, and you still act like this??"
when fh said he came from ACi (last week he said he was from RI and the tutor replied "you're from RI? do you know that RI stands for Real Idiots?" lol)
this time another classmate, zy, said "Act Cute Idiots" lol..
seriously, fh, if you want to joke about which secondary school you came from, make sure you know its abbreviation.

after school, the people in my Prin. of Management project (excluding nix, coz she's too tired to do anything so she went home to sleep) went to complete the draft of our progress report at the MacD in airport terminal 2.
zy blurly pressed the alarm button in the elevator and had to tell the operator that it was an accident. blur..
then that we found out that almost everyone has a different way of eating the seaweed shaker fries haha..
we made some entertainment out of listening to some of my lame jokes and trying to get tf to pronounce long words. he so totally suck at it haha..
jill and i attempted to make him say "supercalifragilisticexpialidocious" lol. but he gave up without trying.
oh well..

smart zy had to suggest "Pickles" as our maid agency name. wth Pickles?!
imagine 1 day someone called..
zy: g'afternoon this is Pickles. i'm zy, how may i help you?
caller: eh.. i want a jar of pickles. dark green ones, not the light green ones..
zy: sorry.. NTUC not this number..
yup, this was contributed by yours trully and made janice laugh until she was near hysteria. lol.
although i'm very sure NTUC do NOT provide call-in-delivery services..

we had almost concluded the fact that zy is not a guy. he could practically teach me how to be a girl =_=;
his talking pitch isn't very low, he takes a longer time in the toilet than us (jill, janice and me) and he got obsessed with the sanitary pad section in cold storage =_=;
when we were leaving, he stupidly went into an elevator which was going up, while we were heading down, and that i had repeatedly pointed out to him loudly that the lift was going up.
still he kept giving us the "why arent you guys coming in?" look and even pressed B when the other passengers pressed 2 lol.
he didn't realise what was going on until the door closed and he saw the upwards arrow. hilarious..
oh and zy, i am not weird. it's called UNIQUE. hah.

anyways..
although he seems, to put it in a nice way, off, sometimes, he can get scary.
as in murderous-scary.
note to self: never step on his tail.

while we were still in cold storage, zy found a pack of salmon slices (you know, those kinds that sort of joins all the slices into 1 big piece?) with seasoning on them in the shape of a x'mas tree. so cute haha go see it for yourself.
for some mentally unsound reason, we started taking pictures of it with our handphones lol.
and we searched through the packs of toblerones for the one with a musical card that was playing x'mas carols.
lol.. singing chocolates..

x'mas is coming but i've got tests during that period. totally ruined the occasion.
oh well, it's s'pore after all. how good a x'mas could it get?
plus i don't really celebrate it haha..

i'm tired but i still have projects to do and there will be more tutorial homeworks coming up.
i'll seriously never have some time for extra sleep..

*sigh* oh to heck with it, this happens ALL THE TIME. =_=zzZ

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stop demanding for a piece of me.

GET A LIFE.

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

11:18 pm

santa baby, slip a sable under the tree, for me

i've been an awful good girl, santa baby

so hurry down the chimney tonight

i'll wait up for you dear, santa baby

please hurry down the chimney tonight

woo.. someone's in a x'mas mood

lol

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hungry.
HUNGRY.
HUNGRY!!~

feed me.. *moans*

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HI IT'S ME AGAIN MUHAHAHA

I'M here to crush this blog muhaha (I'm evil arent I... the reason why i wrote in CHII BLOG BECAUSE I DONT HAVE MY OWN BLOG)

Come to the point i known chii for almost a year now wao... time pass really fast when i was in ITE... haha and btw ITE ROCKS ... i have lots of oppounity in there and i was really happy in there... i cant believe that i actually score a 3.5 GPA score my exams haha... i was happy for mine results as it led me to the JAVA COT where i can meet all kinds of VIP like the PRIME MINISTER and other great people in the future... With this JAVA COT thing i was given the task to do lots of project for the next 1 and a half year and it will be recorded in my ITE cert and i will be given another JAVA cert from the SUN JAVA company itself other then i ITE cert... man i am so thrilled about it i cant wait to get my hands on that cert and show it off to those people who looked down on ITE... SO THE BOTTOM LINE OF THIS STORY IS ITE IS NOT "IT'S THE END"

"ITE" stands for INSTITUE OF TECHICAL EDUCATION
(isnt that obvious for those who dont know about this go bang ur head onto the wall...)

Sian although 1st december is an important day for the both of us but i can find time to meet her... i ending my school at 6pm... and for friday it even worse... i start my school at 9 in the morning and end at 9 in the evening... ITE is very stress u know it not as easy as u poly student thing it would be...

BTW TO END THIS DAILY ENTRY ...

I think i own her alot of things and i therefore want to apologise to her for the things which i have done to her... (a real man is will be the one who is willy to apologise to his girl anywhere, any place and any time... i guess that make me a real man then haha... i'm so proud of myself)

And for those who are seeing this blog remember to come visit this blog at tuesday as i will be posting another lame comment here so please come to see my blog entry if you have nothing to do or you want to find something to laugh at... FINALLY if you got any comment place kindly send an email to niceken87@hotmail.com i will try my best to see your email hahá...

Niceken out

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boring day.. boring lessons.. an even more hypnotising lecture.. crappy tutorial homeworks.. stupid projects that have deadlines which seem to keep moving faster and faster towards me and i havent been able to have the time to complete it.

and i havent touch my MapleStory for 1 week already!!
i think i'm extremely deprived and am starting to feel the withdrawal symtoms.. there was always the urge of doing the Maple F5 face >O (if you cant see the face it's ok. it means you are still sane).

at least my morning was ok..
scared the hell out of my friend yt when i saw her on the my way to take the bus to school.
should have seen her reaction. damn anime. she literally jumped lol.

well.. my day after that was.. to put it in a nice way, BLAND.
at least i managed to finish my MacroEcons and Prin. of Management tutorial homework (such a pain.. research on singapore's mcdonald's?! wth..) and all that's left now is my BizStats tutorial homework, 2 online quizes and that damn japanese presentation on nihon buyoo.
i mean, how many @#$%*&$ information and pictures can you find on traditional japanese dance?!
i ran the search a few times and 95% of all the results are crap. CRAP. UTTER CRAP. and the remaining 5% have 80% irrelevant info. *curses silently*

but..
woohoo!! i figured that changing my font size to "Normal Size" will result in the magical transformation of the minute font to one that is actually readable!!
gosh i feel so stupid about this *sheesh*.
anyways.. you can stop complaining about the font size now, jt (see, i mentioned your name yet again. thank me muahaha)!!

and i'm only left with the last section of this blog to update!!
*yay.. congratulations.. and jubilations..*

the weather's still wet and cold.. although it's not all that bad, just that i'll freeze all over again every morning when i wake up lol.

oh no, my feet are starting to freeze.
*argh!!!!!!!~*

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