Tuesday, April 18, 2006
11:17 pm
after having less than 5 hours of sleep last night, i got up for LOM's orientation this morning.
i've been having problems with sleeping, which had been keeping me awake for more that 5 minutes from the moment my head hits the pillow.
must have been the 1-2am bedtimes that i've been taking since the start of the holidays.
have to correct that habit soon.
this time around, i wasn't worrying as much as i did the past few times when we had to change classes and almost everyone else in my class are complete strangers.
maybe it's because i've finally got used to changing classes all the time? ok so it's not all the time but, yeah..
from first impression, the people in my new class seem pretty ok to me (and julia's in my class so there's at least 1 person that i know). 14 (or was it 18?) people in my class. kinda small-scaled, don't you think so?
there're like only around 90 people in the whole of LOM for my year.
oh well, i think this class will be much easier to get along with compared to last year, considering the absence of a certain person by the name of "janice".
only a few minutes ago, i've been thinking, maybe i thought too little of my BSG class. the people aren't that bad after, if i really think about it.
it's just that, as a class, we weren't very united. but in separate groups, although it may feel a little loose at times but there is still a connection significant enough to notice.
maybe it's just my problem of not knowing how to open up to lots of people at once, and being too used to just sticking to 1 or 2 to build a strong friendship.
but with my old way, real friends can be gained with a stronger bond. plus i'm not a people's-person anyway.
i'm trying.
comparing now and years back when i was still so self-conscious and so lacking in self-confidence, it's good progress.
this sort of thing can't be overcome just at a snap of the fingers.
i'll just keep trying and one day, i'll over come my self.