Friday, September 08, 2006
10:30 pm
woohoo~
i finally bought myself a new pair of converse shoes!!
there were others that looked nicer than the one i bought but it's just too expensive.
$100 plus for a pair of shoes which i may wear holes through within a year??
no thanks.
i went hunting for shoes with ky and xel (i seriously should ask for his real name. can't keep calling his ign the whole time) and got the pair at the converse shop in far east plaza.
someone should really standardise all the shoe sizes.
like, my old pair was a size 6. then i picked up a pair that's 5-half and the person asked what size i'm wearing now and got me a size 6 for that pair when 5-half fits me just fine.
then, i tried the next pair (which is the one that i bought) at size 6 but it was too big and the 5-half fits fine.
what, is it that all the previous size 6s are now 5-halves?
or maybe it only applies to newer series?
shouldn't it all be the same throughout for the same brand? i would understand if it was from different brands but..
*rolls eyes* yeah, whatever. i've got a new pair already so i should stop complaining.
it seems as if people around me have found what they had been searching for.
ky, i feel that this new one will definitely be better than the last.
some people found it, some haven't.
i once thought that i had found it, but then again, i realised that i hadn't.
i thought i did, but it was just a mirage; it was just my mind, making me believe that it was what i needed.
yet when the mirage fades and reality hits, what i thought was there had never been there before.
there was nothing that i needed, more like what i selfishly wanted and just took it all for the purpose of fulfilling my curiosity and that want for some security, connection and a constant that is mine in the ever-changing turbulent world.
and when it was all done, there was nothing left that could sustain me.
all the miniscule details that hadn't been important then seemed like a big issue now and it was like all my thoughts felt clearer.
there had never been anything that i needed (with the the assumption that needs and wants are two different entities) and that what i thought was there had never existed right from the start.
ah well, at least i know that i'll use my brain more the next time.