Communication Skills 2.
such a hell of a darn blasted bloody freaking headache filled subject.
the actual tutorial in the classroom wasn't that bad. it was the online tutorial that's the *ugh!* part.
half of the people who i asked about what to do had no definite answer.
nonetheless, our group finished the questions posted, albeit with a significantly emptied head at the end of it all.
oh and my dearest CS2 teacher gave me a english name out of nowhere.
he had no idea where it came from either.
of all names, it had to be one that sounded so girly and nerdy and so NOT me.
sephyn. sephyn. sephyn. sephyn. sephyn. sephyn. sephyn. sephyn..
went to play pool with ky and tao just this afternoon.
after our disputes about who should treat who what, i settled with paying for ky's mos burger fries and putting off tao's lunch treat until the next time since he paid for pool this round.
oh and i saw en at mos burger! haha.. random stuff, yeah..
ky went off after eating to meet her friend who she's supposed give last minute tuition for o' levels and i was going to cineleisure to pick up keita's solo single that i pre-ordered a few weeks ago.
after attempting to convince tao to just go home and sleep like the pig he was, he decided to follow me to orchard, which he couldn't because my mother conveniently showed up and wanted to tag along.
to avoid unnecessary questions and the expectedly irritating lecture she might give, tao went off separately while i clarified that i was alone before my mother could misplace any suspicion.
anyways, i didn't know that mise sxclusive wasn't open today until we got there so i didn't get to see my keita dearest's single.
*sigh*
yesterday on the last try, i had my cds changed to Arts Appreciation.
from what georgina told me last year, it sounds like a dumb subject but compared to Colour & Composition where you could never get an A no matter what, and that Free Handing Drawing which won't work for me considering that i do mostly manga art, Arts App it is then.
anyways, after a very long wait, i finally got to watch Death Note.
either there wasn't anyone interested enough to watch it with me, or no one's free, or everyone else who is attached has conveniently decided to watch it with said attached person so i ended up watching the movie with fabian.
despite being late due to our lecture this afternoon, we were right on time for the show thanks to the usual late starting of Golden Village cinemas.
throughout the movie fabian kept telling me the story plots and stuff.
and i thought only my sister does that. haha..
fabian! i DO read the original manga alright!
Light is so edible! ryuk is so maniacally cute (although fabian insists otherwise) and L is *gasps* downright adorable!
the actor must be having a roll.
for one, L is easier to act, plus he gets to eat all the time whenever he's on screen and he doesn't need to sit down properly on a chair.
haha..
haven't really tried out all the functions of my new handphone, plus there's the SD card and i think it that my phone can be connected by usb cable.
have to figure those out soon.
seems like our class this semester is smaller than the last. or maybe it was the lack of a certain susan in our class.
think she'll be back tomorrow.
i shouldn't have chose my cds with ky and cy.
turns out that they (marketing students) have lots of subjects this semester so they're not taking any cds this time.
i'm stuck in Introduction to Singapore Law all by myself!!!
tried to change the cds to Colour and Composition so i could try to be in the same class as julia but it was full, as was Culture and Expression (which fazlinda said was damn easy).
dammit!
we have to choose our electives for next semester soon too.
i'm set on Bio-Chem Logistics, but i can't decide between Logistics and Operations Measurement or E-Logistics.
both will be useful in the future so.. i'm torn!!
got a more fluffed up pillow today, so i won't need to worry about having a strained neck the next day.
umm.. that's kinda random but.. yeah.. haha..
*sheepish grin*
wow.. my room does look messy.
no wonder my mother's been nagging about it.
oh well.
*shrugs*
hate my mother.
must control temper.
must not start a quarrel.
must refrain from throwing vulgarities.
must not succumb to smashing things around.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
10:30 pm
OH. MY. SHIT.
i'm doomed.
Friday, October 20, 2006
11:11 pm
i guess now that it's been gone through and done with, i don't have big dreams or fantasies about it happening, or if it might be like in mangas.
really. i know i'm going to be through with it for quite a long time to come.
but still, there's this puny part of my that wished that it will befall on me, whether it would turn out fine or sour again, like in mangas or as ordinary as our boring lives.
so it seems that a part of me is still hopeful.
*LAST DAY OF WORK IN LESS THAN 23 HOURS*
Thursday, October 19, 2006
1:10 am
i met this girl at the comic shop where i work at, one of the customers, obviously.
still in secondary school and she sort of reminded me of how i was back then when someone mentioned "manga" in my general direction.
and so, bam! out of nowhere we hit it off like friends who had known each other for years.
haha.. i've always seemed to be able to do that when it comes to manga.
sort of how i started talking to ky after we had been silent mutual understanding to steer clear of each other's way during primary school, except that we started talking about RAVE's anime instead of manga.
anyhoo, mandy (that customer) came today (technically, yesterday, as its past midnight) to see my drawings that i specially brought for her to see.
couldn't find one of my sketch books though, maybe my sister took it. again.
mandy brought her sketch book too but she does fanart only because she says that her original art "cannot make it".
and she gave me two of her fanart! kenshin from rurouni kenshin and kubota and tokito from wild adapter.
yayness for friends that just seem to cross your path from nowhere.
happy ^_^
why does it seem as if i'll always end up saying "yes" when i should say "no" and then i say "no" or consider too much about the situation when i should have just said "yes" and to heck with whatever that will come?
thinking back to then, i guess there was a hint in my subconsciousness that i should have said "no".
and if i hadn't, i shouldn't have given in to sympathy and complied with the consequence that came after.
now, why in the blazing hell didn't i just said "darn, yes"?!
why did i have to go through all that questioning about minor details and when everything fits what i want (for a change), i go and push it all away because of the religion when it for once isn't going to stand in the way?
gah!
nevermind. i'll get over it soon.
and i'll just keep repeating that to myself like i had for the past one week.
=.=
Saturday, October 14, 2006
11:07 am
i just finished watching the last movie that i rented, crying out love in the center of the world.
my god, it's practically a story made just to make people cry. even the original novel didn't reach that extent, since it was the movie that had more back story of the characters.
this is the first time i actually didn't mind having some areas in the movie being different from the original novel.
even the mv of the theme song "hitomi wo tojite" by ken hirai is enough to make anyone tear.
right, i get affected just by a song alone.
meh.
wahaha!! the mv of keita's debut solo single "michishirube" is out!! (iya~ patented keita "rectangular smile at near the end of the mv!!)
what's better is that he wrote all the lyrics on the single.
hey, it shows that he's more talented that what others perceive as some good-looks but no substance pop/hip-hop group with ryohei and ryuichi that sings what others wrote for them.
keita is like, the best, all right!!!!!
Thursday, October 12, 2006
6:01 pm
phoenix's birthday is nearing, and so using that as an excuse, i went to the sakura at parkway to have lunch with her and jill.
phoenix starting playing with the melted ice-cream and dropping them on the dish of soy sauce mixed with wasabi and came to the conclusion that if wasabi is mixed in, it will hold the melted ice-cream and jill started fiddling with hers too.
they tried to make patterns out of it.
this is jill's.
sort of weird, sickly, disease-like, measle-looking because it had tiny balls of wasabi that she didn't manage to dissolve it in the sauce.
this is nix's, which she self-acclaimed looked better out of the two.
hmm.. i guess after a closer look it does look better haha..
better luck next time, jill (or maybe not, lest the people who work there ban you from entering for playing with food lol..).
after lunch i went to orchard with my mother because she owed me one artbook plus i needed to order keita's new single, which is coming out next week.
i finally got my mise membership card!!
after two whole years of waiting too!
bought two sheets of teppei's stickers, but of course i won't take it out and stick them all over the place. nah-ah. too messy.
and there's another teppei card that i can slot in my wallet so that every time i open it, i can see his face!
*insert evil laughter*
then we went to kinokuniya where i got minekura-sensei's saiyuki artbook, salty-dog I.
one day i'm gonna get the whole series, out of which i have I and II now.
ah! good mood good mood!
should i or should i not?
maybe i'm starting to hunger for some young tender meat haha..
ah! that sounds so pedophilic!
be still, my heart!
Monday, October 09, 2006
1:19 pm
while waiting for someone to open the door to the shop yesterday, i went to the video rental shop nearby.
i realised that there were like, so many movies that i had wanted to watch but couldn't during secondary school because, even though everyone slacks in tk, movies are too heavy a burden on my mediocre allowance back then.
still, the rental price was $2 more than if i rental from the shop near my house so i rented just three japanese movies that i might not be able to find at the shop at the market near my house.
umizaru (part 1)
kagen no tsuki
calling out love at the center of the world (or whatever the title is supposed to be)
watched umizaru this morning.
i especially crawled up early for it.
didn't let me down as much as "shinobi" did.
even if having ayumi sing the touching theme song "heaven" for "shinobi", the movie was *insert stoned face*.
such a disappointment.
anyways, umizaru (literal meaning: sea monkey) had three parts to it: the first movie, a serial, and the last part was another movie called "umizaru: limit of love" which came out earlier this year and ito yuna sang the theme song "precious" (the serials's theme song was "ocean" by B'z).
the movie was, how should i put it.. not to say that it's a masterpiece but it somehow grabs your feelings along with it.
there were no over-the-top CG, or lame-ass jokes (whew!) so it doesn't feel out of place.
go watch it alright?
plus the male lead is good-looking ^_^ tall and lean with a very nice healthy shade for a tan.
then there's kagen no tsuki, which i wanted to watch partly because HYDE from L`Arc~en~Ciel acted in it, and then it's adapted from a manga by the same name by the manga-ka who drew NANA (oops, i forgot the person's name..).
but hx said that the movie's a little nonsensical and the manga is better (like, duh).
oh well, there's HYDE anyways haha~~ *faints*.
phoenix's blog entry reminded me of Battle Royale, so i'm going to find it on youtube one day and watch it.
by the way, nix, if i didn't remember it wrongly, there is a second part to Battle Royale.
all right, back to work~
Friday, October 06, 2006
2:12 pm
i'm getting sick of my work.
getting sick of the workplace.
sick of the people who supposedly work here.
sick of the people here.
sick of the f-ing expensive coffeeshop food here.
sick of the system here.
just sick of everything here.
school!! can't you start earlier for once?!
DAMMIT!!
Thursday, October 05, 2006
10:51 am
went to mandai zoo with phoenix, jill, janice and yimei yesterday.
will put up pictures soon but in the mean time, there are pictures on
phoenix's blog and
jill's blog.
seems as if everyone's understanding of "bringing food to the zoo" ends at "bringing sandwiches".
phoenix was the only one who made cookies, complaining that the instructions said "done in 20 minutes" while she took more than two hours for half a batch when she didn't use the right oven.
wahaha~.
the zoo, apparently, is always in constant upgrading.
the penguins section was closed, the seals was closed, i couldn't find the simulation ride i took when i went in sec2 for project work, and the animal show lasted only a little over 15 minutes.
anyways, i was watching Arashi no Yoru ni (Stormy Night) on youtube last night.
very touching.
it's a japanese animation about forbidden friendship between a goat and a wolf, and everything else that tries to come in between.
sort of disney's The Fox and The Hound, but with a good ending.
and this is the music video for the theme song, by aiko, Star.
go watch the movie! i haven't seen such a simple but good one in quite a while.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
11:30 pm
*first things first, if you're not an atheist or is fiercely devoted to christianity, don't read this entry.
if you still read what follows and decided to be offended by what i post, that's your own business.
i've warned you.*
will there never be an end to people who will keep telling you that by putting your faith in someone's hands and allow yourself to be cleansed your soul will reach eternal peace in a place called heaven?
right. i'm just an atheist who, although speaks of higher powers, so do NOT believe in them.
deities, spirits, ghosts, whatever.
i have myself and that is more than enough for me.
no offense for those who would disagree with me but hey, not everyone believes in the same thing.
friends who know me well enough understand that i'm no longer interested in it.
jt asked me out for events but doesn't go on and on about the goodness of it all when i make it clear that i'm not into it.
i mean, if i'm interested, then i wouldn't be sitting in a bus, on my way home, waiting for some random uncle to come tell me that he's relieved of his pains and sins because he's cleansed, and telling me that He will bless me.
um, like, you think He's so free that when billions of people bless each other He will go around painstakingly one by one fulfilling their blessings?
ok, for those you believe, of course he will.
i mean, there is a reason for those people to put their faith where they put it, right?
i for one, am feeling over-blessed so you can save it for someone else who really needs it.
besides, sprinkling water on people don't lift all their sins. it's all in the mind.
as long as you forgive yourself for doing the wrong thing to people who don't deserve your illness, you recognise that you did do something wrong and in that, you will learn to repent THUS relieving yourself of your evildoings by YOURSELF.
yeah well, provided you truly believe in your own strength and have full faith in yourself.
i blame it on excessive Saiyuki and other minekura-sensei's work.
it must have somehow contributed to my inhumanly high level of self-recognition.
and somehow through it i learn that the only entity that will help you through difficult times is yourself.
the only person that will never betray you is yourself.
like, take praying for example. waiting for an answered prayer is like waiting for a subconsciously made decision to surface to your conscious mind.
in actual fact, you already have the answer in your mind but you needed reassurrance that it is the right choice. your mind knows that it is correct, it is just that you needed confirmation that it's correct is correct.
some wait for a sign. i just listen to myself.
when you listen closely enough you will hear what you needed to hear and not just put it off as not praying hard enough.
i don't need a god. i am my own god.
plus, i don't need to be in heaven when it all ends.
i don't want an afterlife, or reincarnation, or whatever crap there is.
nothing but white fluff to accompany me till the end of time?
another life to live after this one is though?
no thanks. one life is too bloody much.
i just want my consciousness to end. no more. please.
one lifetime is more than enough.
death note in singapore!!!
and i wouldn't have known if fabian didn't tell me.. haha.. i'm so pathetic.
fujiwara tatsuya~ fujiwara tatsuya~ *sings*
the sypnosis is like, so wrong, though.
*quote*
Follows the mysterious L and others as they try to catch cool and brainy high school student Raito Yagami who has come into possession of a notebook that allows him to summon a murderous demon simply by writing the name of his intended victim. Although Raito is aware that killing is wrong, he strongly believes that the violent crimes he perpetrates are justified because "evildoers must die in order to create a better society."
*end quote*
cool and brainy?
cool, yes.
brainy? more like, "extraordinarily bright with exceptional skills of logical deduction".
the notebook doesn't "summon" Ryuk at all. D-OH.
*rolls eyes*.
it allows the holder of the notebook to be able to see the shinigami (death god) and it sure doesn't summon him by writing a name in the book.
writing the name kills the person and doesn't summon a thing. none. nothing.
seriously, yahoo should do some homework.
by the way, Ryuk looks sinisterly-adorable.
it's just my weird twisted sense of demonic cuteness.