Wednesday, January 31, 2007
3:30 pm
i've just realised that my toenails need to be cut.
ah.. how random. right.
and my bathroom mirror came crashing down around 4 or 5 am two days before.
so now i can't look at my wonderful reflection when i'm brushing my teeth or doing other minor everyday stuff.
it seems as if no mirror can survive for more than one year in that bathroom.
hmm..
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
8:54 pm
naturally curious as i am, i used microsoft word to check just how long my post was yesterday.
it was a shocking 1007 words (excluding the warning at the top about the long-winded post)!
why didn't that fluidity happen when i'm writing my story?
Monday, January 29, 2007
2:08 pm
*warning: long post ahead*
i remember when we where all young and way too innocent (at least i was, donkey years ago), we used to fantasise about the one person who'd come along and we'd give our all just to spend a happily ever after with that person.
sort of a fairy tale story, but i blame the notion on the excessive viewing of beautiful disney stories.
yeah, well, it was when everyone was naïve enough to think that the world was only capable of wonderful things like love and compassion.
back when there was no war, no outright terrorism, no dumb presidents, no barbaric politicians, and that tyrant rulers only exist in fictions, to be overthrown by its protagonist.
yet now, even the only planet where we can live on is slowly dying.
who now in their right minds still believe in "forever till the last beat of my heart"?
even i am beginning to be skeptic about the right person appearing in my life at the right time who will say and do all the right things to make me feel that the world is right again.
"forever" is just too far beyond our reach and ends too fast for anyone's likings.
but then at times like this, it will just so happen that someone unexpected will find what everyone has been searching for and could not find.
which brings me to my next point.
last night, while surfing cuteoverload, i came across the site for voting the best sites of 2007, and while looking through the rest of the categories, there was one for GLBT (gay/lesbian/bi/trans) blogs.
blame it on my obsession with yaoi and stuff, i went to Scott-O-Rama to calm my curiosity.
really, it was quite a normal blog like ones that other normal straight people might have, save for the few pictures of (in scott's opinion, because that sort of physique isn't really my type) hunky guys that he would post for his "monday eye candy" section.
and somehow amidst the posts you will find the name "buckaroo" popping up at random intervals.
right, he's scott's boyfriend for more than ten years.
10 LONG YEARS!
and there's no presence of any tangible proof of their bond as compared to other straight couples who'd divorce after a few short years or even months of marriage.
perhaps it is because these people realise that "love" is something too fragile and vague to hold onto, especially considering their situation, while most teenagers nowadays overrate "true love" and overtly underrate "true love".
i won't even start on how creepy it is to see couples as young as 14-15 making out and getting touchy-feely anywhere you can set your eyes on.
does it really matter whether the person you want to be with is the same gender as you?
has anyone found a dictionary that defines "love" mutually exclude the feeling between different-gendered individuals?
what's really important is the sincerity of that feeling and i really don't understand how people can go around proclaiming how disgusting same-sex relationships are and professively insulting it about how they take it up their *ahem* southern end.
for goodness' sake, which other opening do you see at the lower end?!
granted, hearing about lesbian couples could make me squirm mildy once in a long while, it still doesn't mean that what these people have are wrong.
and that's more than what i can say for straight couples who come together just for the sake of it and then switching off the other half when they get bored with each other as if it was just a game of possession to pass time.
then again, i'm cynical about almost everything.
cynically skeptic, if i would say so myself.
for most times i even wonder whether i may live the later parts of my life old, winkled and lonely with only a rocking chair and the television to keep me company.
and maybe a few stray cats that i may have picked up from the void decks.
whatever.
anyways, when the four of us (julia, yl, ym and i) where at Cheers! before communication skills2 started this afternoon, we came across the newspaper stand near the entrance and saw the news about the taiwanese actress xu wei lun who passed away last night.
can't say that i'm a big fan of her drama series, since i've only seen one of it and it was just so i could watch my favourite taiwanese actor mike ho.
but there was a weird sense of sadness as the four of us started to get all worked up over the sheer unbelievability (is there such a word?) of it all when it was only the night before last that the news said she was in ICU.
i would say it's because of her age, although twenty-eight isn't all-too-young, but because she already has had achievements.
and it's a real pity when you think of all the new shows she would have taken part in if the accident hadn't happen.
plus, from what i gather from my other friends, the actress was quite talented in other areas, namely her musicality.
not to mention that most taiwanese artistes have finished basic university courses or higher.
it was sort of weird that all i was thinking of when i was on the bus to school this morning was about love and gay issues, then it switched to death and life's fragility when i was heading back home.
one can say that life is too short, yet sometimes each day seems to drag on endlessly. and there are times when you think life is so long that you are able to complete everything on your "to-do list before you die" when unexpected deaths happen and shake your mind up for a bit.
life is only as strong as it's vulnerability, and sometimes even i ponder about whether i could open my eyes to a new day after falling asleep.
ah~ that being all typed out, i can now finally study for tomorrow's communication skills2 test.
bleah-ness.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
12:42 am
i've just finished watching Sukisho! and the ova which is sort of the last episode for it.
ah~ it's so sweet!
and kinda sad and heart-wrenching at times..
then it turns sweet again at the twelfth episode, creating the impulse to rest your cheek against your hand and go "aww~"
it is a happy ending, thankfully, although it's a little sad for Ran that he can't meet Yoru anymore.
if you're interested you can try searching "sukisho episode" in youtube. and then search for "sukisyo 13 ova" for the ova.
there are thirteen episodes in all, including the ova.
ah~
let's see if i can find the game version of the anime.
strangely, this is one anime since a very long time that doesn't make me squirm with weird injections of CG amidst traditional animation, and weirdly drawn characters that don't look constant throughout the series.
hmm..
Labels: TV shows
Saturday, January 27, 2007
1:03 am
my "love" for Gravitation's songs has been somewhat revived by the shabbier version of the anime.
as such, i am listening to the vocal albums that i bought like, three years back.
*hearts* seki tomokazu!
*hearts* kotani kinya!
and i found a whole lot of yaoi and shonen-ai animes on tudou.com *licks lips*
hehheh.. currently watching "Sukisho!" (short for Suki na Mono wa Suki, Dakara Shoganai!) and the opening song is nice.
oh and the seiyuu for Nao, the uke of the pair, also voiced for Goku for Saiyuki.
strangely, i think i might have heard Hakkai's seiyuu in there too.
was checking my tp school email just now, and i saw a ridiculously rubbish mail.
repeat after me, people:
"WHAT THE HELL??"
Saturday, January 20, 2007
12:16 pm
woohoo~
finally decided on what to do for my blasted arts appreciation mosaic.
wanted to do apocalypse; explosion, blood and gore, fiery red and smoldering violets.
but it's not in one of the accepted themes. damn =.=
nevermind, i'm perfectly fine with flowers and liveliness as with death and destruction.
*hums*
anyways, i've added the next chapter to Aki Kitsune. go read it ok? haha..
-aki kitsune chapter 7-
or read it from FictionPress here.
Labels: Aki Kitsune, Creations, Fictions
bleah.
hate the rush of slaving for projects.
have been bringing my laptop to school this week since the LOM labs are filled with third year seniors doing their own major project and the common computer labs will be so full with squabbling year ones that we have no idea how we survived the project rush last year.
didn't do my calculus tutorial work for the third week (or was it fourth? third it is) and had to "improvise" on the spot to do one of the questions.
good thing i haven't totally forgotten about my Amaths.
had lunch with the group before heading to the library to finish up on our report. julia had to leave early for her basketball stuff before coming back for open house duties.
and i finally passed phoenix her extremely belated christmas present. it's sort of like a portrait of her, manga style (everyone knows i can only draw faces the manga way).
she loved it, and i got a paper bag she had hand-drawn on for her push cart for retail management project.
so worth it ^_^
yl was seriously on sugar high today.
totally busied herself entertaining ym and me, while the three of us slacked off work every few intervals for me to show them manga pictures that i have.
oh, and i told them about yami no matsuei and Lovely*Complex.
yl got shocked by me for the countless number of times this week when i told her all about hisoka before mentioning that hisoka's a guy.
*cue evil laughter*
when we came out of the library -OMG- there's like SO many people. and there was this huge crowd at design school. so stuck that people could hardly move.
the number of people in the other places are also horrifying.
it's those kind of crowd that makes you want to just sit in that spot and not move, at least until the flow thins out.
the rest asked me to join them for their duties but i have no idea what crap to come up with if people came in and asked about my diploma.
pathetic, i know.
anyways, took the bus home as usual (the weight of my laptop was starting to strain my shoulder, had to bear with it while waiting for the bus. ah, the agony..), and watch DaVinci code when i got home (my father bought a bundle of DVDs before coming back from a business trip in china).
hmm.. the movie missed out on some details, but can't be helped i guess.
ah.. i can finally view fanfiction.net on my own connection.
guess that starhub safesurf thing is off.
woohoo!!
and i'll have to rush for arts appreciation mosaic tomorrow. well, technically today, seeing that it's past midnight.
dammit.
Monday, January 15, 2007
10:31 pm
first of all,
GOH JING TENG!
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!~
haha..
two months and 8 days later it will be my turn!
we have to meet up one day!
when you think that there will be one day of brilliant sunshine (although i'm very much in love with rain and thunderstorms), it just had to start pouring before i could get any more than half an hour of warmth and dryness after stepping out of my house.
=.=
anyways, my mother had been talking about a bus ride to parkway a few days ago.
there was this arab woman (you know, those who wrap themselves from head to toe and the only thing you could see were her eyes? wonder how their husbands figure out which is their wife) on the bus.
technically, they were supposed to be covered up. literally covered up.
but my mother saw that the woman wore sandals.
not just any sandles, branded sandles.
branded watch.
branded handbag.
branded wallet.
and she had this small counter gadget that you count numbers by pressing a button on it.
now that's not the freaky part. the freaky part was that she was pressing the counter each time a person boarded the bus.
*cue sudden realisation*
.. right~
let's give that poor woman a benefit of the doubt all right? lest others assume that we are discriminating those who came from middle-east countries because we are taking things at face value that she was counting if the number of lives on the bus is worth her one life should she plant anything on it.
people, people.
please stop rolling your eyes at the seemingly-lamely produced warning/commercial on tvmobile about paying attention to suspicious articles and persons on public transport.
i know i did roll my eyes the first time.
singapore wasn't really well known for her half-ass tv commercials.
and i'm digressing a little here.
the point is, we assume too fast in our insignificant shells that singapore is a very safe country.
we have been too comfortable in believing that there are people who will do their job of protecting us while those self-proclaimed pretty and stylish teens and tai-tais keep swiping their credit cards dry of their parents' or husbands' money like there's no tomorrow.
and singapore still is very safe, i don't doubt that, but that does not mean that threats will stay away.
city or no city, modern or primitivity, danger does not choose easy victims to prey on.
this is still a dog-eat-dog world, my dears, regardless of whether the thing that covers our flesh is an armani suit or a few puny bits of fallen leaves (although i'm not sure if there are designers out there who will make that a fashion comeback).
and when you sit on the bus, alone or not, when you come to realise that you don't know if you could get home safe, don't know if the people on the vehicle will be safe after you get off the bus, don't know if the others surrounding you on the almost-empty or soddingly cramped transport are having some nefarious plans or are just trying not to fall asleep and miss their stop..
you will realise how fragile safety is, how illusive security is, and how horrifyingly uncertain life really is.
quote alastor "mad-eye" moody from harry potter,
CONSTANT VIGILENCE!
indeed, moody. constant vigilence.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
5:02 pm
got back all my mid-sem results.
business calculus: 42.5/50
purchasing principles & practices: 37/60
logistics & ops modelling: 43/50
kinda surprised that my calculus was lower than my LOG MOD results.
ah~ but the worst was purchpp. and i wrote so much for my answers.
oh well *shrugs*
been trying to not get distracted from finishing my communication skills 2 journal/report thingy that i have to submit tomorrow.
i can't really help it if there's nothing i can write about, anyway.
there's this harry potter fanfiction that i'm hooked onto. hopefully the person updates faster.
click here.
this author's good, especially her Darkness Trilogy: "let the darkness take you", "remember you", and "lacuna". read it in that order.
lacuna isn't finished yet.. *pouts*
clickie~
this one's good too, the homour fics, because the rest mostly doesn't have a happy ending and i'm such a sucker for happy endings.
ah, a little warning.
if harry/draco or draco/harry pairings make you squirm in a bad way.. don't read those.
although the plots for the Darkness Trilogy is quite nice.
*yawn*
back to that sodding report that i have to complete~
Labels: Fanfictions, Fic recs
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
12:54 am
had a chat with phoenix about cute japanese guys, which was triggered off by my display picture of koike teppei on msn messenger.
please ignore the seemingly broken english that may pop up.
phoenix: why jap guys look so good ah
phoenix: singapore all shitties
chii: "is it in the things they eat?"
chii: "or is it the air in japan?"
chii: "several scientists are commissioning to start a research on this topic"
phoenix: is it???
chii: "they are hoping to find the source of this confusion"
chii: "and hopefully bring peace to the minds of fangirls worldwide"
phoenix: hahahaaa!!!
chii: "also, bringing a peace of mind to physically less-well-off males, that they too, might have a chance to look better!"
chii: "and this is reporter chiii from tokyo japan, on de streets of shinjuku, back to the studio."
the thing was, phoenix actually believed me that there are experts out there finding out what made japanese guys cute or hot, or both.
i apologise to any reader for coming across my weird and random update as my first blog post of 2007.
