i broke my hairband and i can't find the 0.2 drawing pen that i use for penning down notes, thoughts and random phrases for any of my story ideas.
i have been distracted from my self-planned studying day by the electronic device that is my laptop and subsequently, ideas and phrases that came into my mind that can be used for Aki Kitsune.
why does my muse stir from spontaneous hibernation whenever i need to study for exams?
i am currently stuck in the LOM lab, feigning attention in class because of my favourite auspiscious seat right at the back of the room that does not allow me the best view of the projection screen right at the front of the class.
so, i have clearly given up on checking tutorial answers to come update my blog and relieve my blogging time at home for other things.
ah... me and my luck for choosing seats.
oh, and in view of exams next week and to prepare for it, i'm putting the writing and posting of Aki Kitsune on hiatus until the papers end.
my regular posting schedule should resume around 10th june.
*bows in humble apology*
i've been waiting on bated breath ever since i watched the ending of episode 6 and episode 7 is finally out!!!
*big whoop!*
i am such a happy person right this moment.
today just couldn't get better.
actually, it could. if it starts to rain a thunderstorm now i'd be really content.
don't know why but i'm craving for a storm now. hmm..
tomorrow's TP's CCN day, and this year, my class isn't doing anything at all.
just when i thought, for my last year in TP, i could walk around and visit other stalls in the other faculties, i ended up agreeing to go karaoke at chinatown with julia, yl and ym.
i am currently mentally building up a songlist of all the titles that i want to sing tomorrow.
*evil snicker*
you guys better watch out! i'm a deprived ex-choir member, and nothing's going to get in between me and that mic!!!
hmm.. i might bring the new camera and take some photos.
sort of like, in remembrance of our.. alternative CCN day. haha..
bleah~
after rushing and sacrificing my sleep, at the risk of being scolded by my parents for sleeping late again, chapter14 of Aki Kitsune is posted!!
hurray for me!!!
click here to read it from my website.
or here to read it from FictionPress.Com.
either way, leave a review for me, please?
reviews make my muse very very very happy.
Labels: Aki Kitsune, Creations, Fictions
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
12:01 pm
suddenly, i'm getting hooked on chinese oldies.
in my opinion, there are lesser and lesser songs nowadays that have the simple yet alluring sentiments and tunes of the older songs.
here's a song i'm listening to now. not an oldie, but it's nice.
庭竹- 现在的你
this is the oldie that i'm listening to now:
于台烟- 想你的夜
somehow i woke up this morning to that song playing over and over in my mind.
don't you just hate it when couples get touchy-feely in public?
i mean, hand-holding and arms-around-shoulders is fine, but snogging in public? on a bus? and i won't even continue down the list what the couple i saw yesterday on the bus- my bus ride home- was doing.
*shudders violently*
at times like that, my evil cynical realist mind will take over and start
tsk-ing to myself.
"nah, they're just a little too young and too dumb to really know the true meaning of having a relationship. when they get sick of smooching each other all over the place, they'll realise how much time they've wasted on each other."
and it's not me being bitter about the fact that i don't have anyone to fawn over.
because they haven't seen the world outside of their own tiny universe. because they have no idea how wide the field is beyond their little well and have no inkling about the things happening in everywhere else, too occupied with each other to even bother at all.
for me, it's so far behind me already that sometimes it slipped my mind what had happened actually and when those things had happened (or maybe it's early ageing working its horrible magic on my memory?).
i get so much free time to do things that i've neglected then that the past is so ultimately insignificant and so- perhaps- it's not very important at all in the first place, just that hindsight is 20-20 and so i didn't see it until after it ended.
speaking of free time, i'm still halfway through editing Aki Kitsune chapter14 and it's already late on my posting schedule.
*bangs head*
*runs off*
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
11:48 am
a few days ago my father bought a new digital camera. our old one spoilt so.. yeah.
i had some fun playing with it and its macro function.
gosh, my laptop's keypad looks so dirty..
that was the first time i managed to bun up my hair with only two pins!
and securely too.
it takes some trial-and-error to get the angle of the pins right and it's kind of troublesome.
i guess for me, a rubberband would be so much more effective and efficient. meh.
Labels: Photos
Monday, May 14, 2007
7:28 pm
hey julia! this post's for you!
i couldn't find any link for online manga of Lovely Complex though.
here're the ones i have:
Lovely Complex anime (chinese subtitles)
episode 1
episode 2
episode 3
episode 4
episode 5
episode 6
My Favorite Girl movie (chinese subsitles)
part 1
part 2
part 3
part 4
part 5
have to warn you though, tudou sucks big time when it comes to loading so maybe you can try watching those in the morning before our tutorial at 4pm on tuesdays if it doesn't work at night.
loads better then, if i'm not wrong.
i'm loading ep6 now, by the way.
*teehee!!*
Ouran High Host Club manga (in chinese)
scanlations site
Labels: LoveCom, TV shows
Sunday, May 13, 2007
11:14 pm
*yawn*
i'm kinda bored.
and i'm lagging on Aki Kitsune.
the ending of chapter20 is proving to be difficult and i am desperately trying to add in plots and stuff that can build up yet not drag down the story at the same time.
please bestow the almighty perseverance on me! for i know not of such things in my lazy and procrastination-prone brain..
*sigh*
well, i'll demand a good end to chapter20 out of my obsinate muse at gun/knife/vegetable point (if i can't stand vegs, i'll assume that my muse also can't, seeing that she's part of my creative mind) and not sleep until i'm satisfied with it.
i found the movie online for My Favorite Girl (you have to scroll down after clicking the link).
i'm not really sure what it is in the first place, but from my mediocre japanese, it's from some manga that's probably based on WaT's music videos and they're the ones that came up with the idea for the movie (as the credits after the movie showed).
so, obviously wentz and teppei acted in it, and the story is so simple and sweet it makes me want to *squee!!* from reasons other than the fact that teppei-chan is so cute (as always).
and that's saying something because i've exhausted my patience for overtly simple stories of "boy meets girl, end up together, get separated because of something, couldn't stand being apart, and ultimately end up together-together".
to avoid in depth spoilers, hayato (teppei) likes a girl at this ramen store he works at, but she hardly smiles because she's still hung-up about the death of her ex two years ago. and of course hayato says it's ok to not forget the guy and they end up dating (big surprise, NOT!).
then there's kai (wentz) who's striving to be a good magician, doesn't have a proper office job, works part-time anywhere, but is dating this girl who does have a stable job, immaculate suits and frequents good restaurants (because of her work, not because she likes to spend money, but of course kai doesn't know that).
so, kai works hard for cash to take her out and tries to be someone who can be a match to her, but sort of frustrates the girl because she says somewhere in the middle that "he's becoming different, and not the one she liked in the first place", and she kept assuring him that she really liked his "cheap gift" of a ring that doesn't match her clothes when he sulks that he couldn't get her anything better.
anyway, hayato finally breaks at one point and tells his girlfriend that she never really saw him and is just chasing after the shadow of her dead ex, stalks off, while kai vehemently thinks that he'll never be good enough for his own girlfriend and sort of rejects her so that she could have a better future with someone else.
angst ensues, but it's a happy ending after all and- what can i say?- it's sweet.
not sweet-puke-your-guts-out-chick-flick-sweet, but simple-aww-that's-nice-sweet.
and there's not a single snog throughout!
there's enough comedy to balance out the mental glucose content too.
here's the link for the first part (it's split into five parts).
the subsequent parts are on the right if you scroll down.
all right, enough stalling.
i've got to end AK soon if i still want my sleep.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
11:40 pm
finally!!
after one whole week, i've finally gotten around to watch Spiderman3 with ym!!!
i don't understand why there are people out there who say it isn't as nice.
personally, i think it's good. albeit with lesser Spidey vs Bad Guy action in the middle because it's building on things other than fighting and i totally understand the reason for it *eyes own story* so.. yup. we all have different perspective, i guess.
but an action movie doesn't mean that it can't have elements of drama in it, just like a drama doesn't need to have a lack of action and thriller tints.
oh, sidetracking a little:
peter and harry are just so slashable. or maybe it's just the rabid yaoi fangirl part of me talking.
*shrugs*
and after countless weeks, i've gotten my lazy bums moved about to transfer my files back from my father's external drive.
all the japanese words of japanese artistes' names from my music files are screwed.
dammit.
it's going to take DAYS to organise everything again.
damn external drive.
damn murphy and your stupid insistence at working your law on me.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
8:39 pm
i must be getting desperate.
my ex-classmates are starting to look really good.
my LOMe tutor seems to be getting high on something everyday.
or maybe he forgot to take his pills.
perhaps it's the pills that have this effect on his uber-hyperness?
i've just reread this fanfiction, Beneath You, from long ago that i've favourited.
apparently i've favourited the list of favourites this person had and it linked me to that fanfic but anyhoo-
here's the link, for those who might be interested. the descriptions are beautiful, the characterisations stay canon, and it's just heartachingly good.
it's the really effective sort of angst that stabs a pain in your heart, makes you short of breath and starts this sharp throbbing tingle right in the centre of your palms.
it's my kind of angst, by the way. if a story has good angst, those are the effects i have and it's a good way to measure it, because- oh, i have such high standards for fanfictions.
Labels: Fanfictions, Fic recs
*scampers off*
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
6:06 pm
i had a satisfying TWELVE HOURS of sleep last night.
woohoo!!
although i've missed csi:ny just for it.
but still, i could watch the rerun on sunday.
and i've finished all the tutorials for this week!
um.. except logistics measurements though. the layout looks too confusing for me to burn my precious brain cells to work out.
i have about 800 words left to finish chapter20 of Aki Kitsune and just yesterday, fabian told me chapter11 felt a little confusing to him.
*ahem* people, those who actually read my story, if you have any comments about any of parts of my story, please post it as a review, or at least tell me right away so that i could at least try to salvage the situation and bring the story back on track.
not to say that phoenix wasn't doing her job as my beta. and i was only so aware of fabian's less than perfect reading skills (no offence, fab, you know i'm just joking).
plus, i can only reread my chapters so many times to check before i go looney toons myself.
people! there is a function for that little option at the bottom called "Review this chapter?" so please use it for goodness' sake!
Labels: Aki Kitsune, Creations, Fanfictions, Fictions
Saturday, May 05, 2007
1:32 pm
of writing, inspiration and contradiction.
i find that when writing, the words come faster and flows smoother in the dead of the night.
when the silence is absolute and the only thing i can feel is the familiar crisp sea breeze shifting about with a colour of inky-blue while the words that eluded me in broad daylight return with an articulate insistency.
and although listening to music is fine and all, fast and heavy beats of various rock songs (i'm playing You Give Love A Bad Name by Bon Jovi on loop now) seem to help because slower ones, regardless of their intensity, render me helpless by getting me to sing along either aloud or in my mind, attempting to match the musical passion in the originals'.
typing direction through the laptop saves me the time needed to transfer words from paper to bytes, but somehow, my muse prefers the good old blank notebook pages- or any blank ones, for that matter. strangely, the words refuse to stop when a pen rests in my right hand and receptive pieces of paper lie before me.
my muse works in mysterious ways, i conceded long ago.
sudden inspiration hits me in weird places like the bathroom and with bad timing like when i'm studying for exams less than 24 hours away.
sometimes it comes in short phrases, split second scenarios, sudden images, or unsuspecting questions like "How about..." and "What if this...". when i begin to answer them subconsciously, a story unfolds with branching plots that i can't stop fast enough to get a pen to jot them down before they disappear with a taunting smirk.
i must admit my love for sarcastic contradiction.
cynical irony had somehow made me fall head over heels in love with it.
paradoxical sentences felt so much more intriguing and held such texture and tangibility that draws me into it, forcing me to read the phrase repeatedly until there's nothing more to absorb, daring me to not use such techniques in my own writings.
the intensity and weight of these sort of words seem to possess unimaginable power and charm that i'm sure will appeal to anyone with a love for words, whether reading or writing them.
that being said, it's back to writing.
1400 words more to finish chapter twenty of Aki Kitsune.
Labels: Aki Kitsune, Creations, Fanfictions, Fictions, One-shots, Scribbles
Thursday, May 03, 2007
11:42 pm
the ice at the north pole is melting thirty years faster than what scientists had predicted.
does anyone even care that very soon the polar wildlife have to evolve super fast to adapt to an iceless, possibly not very cold arctic ocean?
glaciers disappearing, seasons gone awry, wildlife's biological clocks all ticking at the wrong time, overhunting of endangered animals, sea levels rising, natural disasters happening at places where it shouldn't happen at all..
next thing we know, singapore might start having winters, northern russian lands might have eternal summer and sentosa's going to have twisters.
ah, screw the "cyclones near the equator only form between latitudes 2o and 10o north and south of the equator" and singapore is safe because by some geological stroke of luck we're just 1o north of the equator.
for all we know we could even be having the ice rain that canada experienced in 1998.
why not just throw us a meteor and wipe out the whole world like it did with the dinosaurs so the whole earth can restart?
some cosmic "reformatting", huh?
anyways, i've started reading Eragon, one of the two novels that i bought two holidays ago.
this could be one of those few novels that actually fits my preferences.
descriptive without being overloaded with redundant details and- and proper characterisations.
i'm hard to please.
there is a reason why i've stopped reading those girly-pink romance novels where the point of the whole story is that the two main characters will end up together anyway so let's work towards that and forget about the development for now- wait! there's no more development anymore because the story has already ended!
boring~
*rolls eyes*
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
11:12 am
new chapter of Aki Kitsune posted!
and of course it can be read either from my website or from fictionpress.
happy reading~
by the way, AK isn't what kids nowadays call "emo".
it's called:
ANGST.
"angst", is a pretty little emotion that clutches at your heart and twangs its strings; so close to snapping it but keeps it barely at the point and that's where the pain and desperation comes in because you'd want it to break but fearing the consequences if it did.
"angst" is something that my muse feeds my plot bunnies with and when the little furries are happy with their food, they give the pretty lady words so that she propels my plot.
"angst" is a very good material to build on, versus the once-famous Mary Sue because you see, a Mary Sue is so perfect she doesn't need character growth. Miss Sue grows her supporting cast and they complement her in return so that she can grow them further. a perfect little cycle but what's the point of going in circles when it doesn't get you anywhere?
"angst", on the other hand, means that the character experienced pain, be it physical or psychological, or even both. the character can either be aware of the ache inside, or totally oblivious to it, only knowing that he/she is reaching for something always out of grasp. this ache then drives the character forward to grow on his or her own, to overcome the inner demon using his or her own strength while the supporting cast helps. in this case, a conclusion can be reached, albeit surviving crooked paths, daunting terrains, emotional hardships and reliving the evil so deep with the character so that he/she can face it head-on to finally conquer it. A long winding path nonetheless, but not an endless spiral that gets one nowhere.
that being said, let's take a look at "emo".
although i'm not adverse to using the word itself, it holds a different meaning to me, when put beside the almighty "angst".
in singapore, what one would call "ah lian" and "ah beng" (adolescent teenagers with a horrible sense of coolness and an even more off-the-mark sense of style yet still assuming they can't look anything but real good) or cool-wannabes some of us call "poseurs", would use "emo" to make themselves.. how should i put it- cold and silent and brooding while attempting to look good faking the above three aspects.
personally, they are not doing justice to the movie-drama-comic-novel characters that do such a good job at being "emo", or wait- it's "angsting", my bad.
"emo", in my honest opinion, has been defiled by those teenager-hopefuls (please send them back to school, i'm sure they still have puberty to go through in- oh i don't know, ten years?) and poseurs so much that me using it interchangeably with the wonderful "angst" is as bad as me dying my hair chocolate-brown with red, pink and blonde highlights in the strands after straightening it so much that even my almost-flat chest has more volume than it, then dressing up in mock-goth, tasteless fake metal chains around my hips, too much make-up on my face, and squealing with utmost excitement whenever i see the colour baby-pink, and giving myself manicures every weekend with sparkly polish and diamantes so fake it's just glorified plastic.
so pardon me that while i shun "emo" without so much as a disdainful glance down my nose before disregarding it because it's not even worth a sharp content grind with the sole of my shoes, i keep the "angst" in a flawless glass display cabinet and watch the pretty thing shine with perfectly heartbreaking imperfection in the little spotlight installed above it.
Labels: Aki Kitsune, Creations, Fictions