Tuesday, May 01, 2007
11:12 am
new chapter of Aki Kitsune posted!
and of course it can be read either from my website or from fictionpress.
happy reading~
by the way, AK isn't what kids nowadays call "emo".
it's called:
ANGST.
"angst", is a pretty little emotion that clutches at your heart and twangs its strings; so close to snapping it but keeps it barely at the point and that's where the pain and desperation comes in because you'd want it to break but fearing the consequences if it did.
"angst" is something that my muse feeds my plot bunnies with and when the little furries are happy with their food, they give the pretty lady words so that she propels my plot.
"angst" is a very good material to build on, versus the once-famous Mary Sue because you see, a Mary Sue is so perfect she doesn't need character growth. Miss Sue grows her supporting cast and they complement her in return so that she can grow them further. a perfect little cycle but what's the point of going in circles when it doesn't get you anywhere?
"angst", on the other hand, means that the character experienced pain, be it physical or psychological, or even both. the character can either be aware of the ache inside, or totally oblivious to it, only knowing that he/she is reaching for something always out of grasp. this ache then drives the character forward to grow on his or her own, to overcome the inner demon using his or her own strength while the supporting cast helps. in this case, a conclusion can be reached, albeit surviving crooked paths, daunting terrains, emotional hardships and reliving the evil so deep with the character so that he/she can face it head-on to finally conquer it. A long winding path nonetheless, but not an endless spiral that gets one nowhere.
that being said, let's take a look at "emo".
although i'm not adverse to using the word itself, it holds a different meaning to me, when put beside the almighty "angst".
in singapore, what one would call "ah lian" and "ah beng" (adolescent teenagers with a horrible sense of coolness and an even more off-the-mark sense of style yet still assuming they can't look anything but real good) or cool-wannabes some of us call "poseurs", would use "emo" to make themselves.. how should i put it- cold and silent and brooding while attempting to look good faking the above three aspects.
personally, they are not doing justice to the movie-drama-comic-novel characters that do such a good job at being "emo", or wait- it's "angsting", my bad.
"emo", in my honest opinion, has been defiled by those teenager-hopefuls (please send them back to school, i'm sure they still have puberty to go through in- oh i don't know, ten years?) and poseurs so much that me using it interchangeably with the wonderful "angst" is as bad as me dying my hair chocolate-brown with red, pink and blonde highlights in the strands after straightening it so much that even my almost-flat chest has more volume than it, then dressing up in mock-goth, tasteless fake metal chains around my hips, too much make-up on my face, and squealing with utmost excitement whenever i see the colour baby-pink, and giving myself manicures every weekend with sparkly polish and diamantes so fake it's just glorified plastic.
so pardon me that while i shun "emo" without so much as a disdainful glance down my nose before disregarding it because it's not even worth a sharp content grind with the sole of my shoes, i keep the "angst" in a flawless glass display cabinet and watch the pretty thing shine with perfectly heartbreaking imperfection in the little spotlight installed above it.
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