anyhoo, back to the shopping part, my mother wanted to buy a bracelet with this jade carving of a prosperous animal or something for my grandmother and added to that, we ended up buying this black-silver coloured ring for the both of us.
damn i'm starting to go crazy over black-silver. it's such a hot colour don't you think so? it's black yet it's still silver. haha.. oxymorons turn me on yeah? lol..

other than that, i bought a skirt today!! haha.. and it's shorter than the one i bought for chinese new year.
well, they have a sale so why not? although $66 and $52 is only a difference of $6.. and i got another t-shirt too, which was included in the $52.
i guess spending a little money once in a while won't hurt.

browsed through my old photo album last night before going to sleep. not a very complete collection, i would say, because my grandmother didn't get to search through all the cupboards.
"too hot, couldn't stand the heat. will try to find the rest next time." quote my grandmother.

after flipping through all the photos, i've concluded a few things:

• man, i was so darn cute! yeah, all babys are cute before their ages turn into a 2-digit number, but heck, it's me! i'm cuter!
• my big eyes are just such a killer! damn, i was so cute!
• i'm a happy baby! (who in their right mind will take a photo of a kid crying??)
• and i thought my father was skinny when he was younger. my uncle was scrawny! and my aunt looks cute too! (although not as cute as me ^_^)
• it seems as if the people in my family carry a camera with them everywhere we go. there were photos taken at the mcdonald's at ecp, the pizza hut that used to be there, the playground at my grandfather's house.. the bird park (15 years ago haha..)!
• everyone looked so much younger (like, DUH!)..

going through all the photographs really reminded me of how time had passed by all these years and how everyone had changed. maybe not in the essence of the character but there is noticable change.
my grandfather and father were skinnier, their hair were still black! haha..
my grandmother looked so much younger, of course she still looks young now. it's just that you can tell the additional wrinkles. gah! my favourite person in the whole family. don't know how many times i've made her blood boil and yet she and my grandfather spoils me to the core haha..
i was only 50cm taller than one of my stuff toys! haha..
time really flies i guess, when you look back on the path that you've walked on all these while.

here's another random memory:
i've always thought "silhouette" was the same as "shadow", as enlightened by one ass of a primary schoolmate. all the way until secondary 4 when the HOD of science told us during a chemistry extra lesson, the real definition of "silhouette".
felt damn stupid about this when i remembered it this afternoon.

after slaving away for 8 hours yesterday, i have completed the impossible:
cleaning and tidying my room.

yup, i moped, wiped and vacuumed almost every corner and every surface of my room.
i sweat, i stank, i felt sore for the rest of today but I DON'T CARE!
haha.. there is this weird sense of satisfaction when i clean things up once in a while.
and i really mean once in a while; the basin that i washed the cloth in after every few wipes was the colour of caligraphy ink. probably 1 or 2 shades darker than that because some of the dirt and dust have already settled to the bottom of the basin.

and my grandmother brought over some of the photo albums that have the photos taken when i was still that pure and innocent young girl (well, we were all innocent once..)
now i have extra entertainment haha.. gonna go flip through it later.

i think i'm gonna go add the next chapter to the story that i've put up in my geocities website.
whoever's reading this, don't check the site like, frequently because i don't write up my stories all the time. schoolwork and stuff yeah?
since it's the holidays now i guess i could add at least another chapter by the end of this month.

feel like changing my blogskin.. i already have 1 in mind that i want to change to haha..
maybe i'll add a tagboard this time.
hmm..

now it's gonna be mapling and playing gameboy advance games *cheers!!*

no i don't have a gameboy advance (i do have a gameboy color, by the way). you can download the emulator for it and find roms to play on your computer or something.
took me almost 1 hour to find the rom for Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories because most sites have either broken links or files that don't work. Next it was another few minutes to find workable emulators because the emulator i used to play on was in the "family" computer plus i think it got deleted after my bf reformatted that computer.

so now i have a working emulator and 2 working games (used to have pokemon-something but i gave up on that aeons ago) Kingdom Hearts and Final Fantasy I & II: Dawn of Souls.

woohoo!!~ gonna find more games to play!!~

**i'm not gonna put the websites where i found those games from. come find me on msn messenger if you wanna know.**

no really, you see, there is this weird sense of excitement from being in the grey area between really going out and just for a flirt (unless you can keep it up long term in a committed relationship, good for you), or maybe called "ai mei" in chinese (go check your dictionary) which means, well, exceeding normal friendship but not yet having a real relationship.
other than that sinful feeling of excitement, you don't get problems that easily. i mean, you are less in responsibility for the other person so of course you don't need to go all the way just to make sure he/she is fine before you start looking after yourself.
plus, there isn't an obligation for you to understand the person inside-out and also not a need for all of your inner self to be exposed to him/her. you can still act according to your real character and impulses without worrying if it would bring consequences to the relationship.
heck, your decisions don't even have to pass through the other person's permission. the opportunity cost of "commitment".
no packed schedules, no rushes, more time to yourself. there, you have it, the reasons to have just a flirt instead.
no, i'm not suggesting that everyone should only flirt or that it's a good thing in the long-term. these are just thoughts that i've come into terms with.

now that you've taken another peek at my evil mind, i've gotta go mug for exams again.
where's that 48 hours per day that i wished for?!

having a mother who doesn't cook lunch
means having to "refuel" on a cup of orange juice, a mug of ice-cream (ugh, why do they keep buying those with nuts?!) and some sort of curry bun thingy.

having such a warm weather
means stoning in front of my laptop, surfing the net randomly (i found kazuya minekura-sensei's website!! woohoo!!) while totally putting off studying.

having the air-con turned on
will increase the temptation to lie down on my bed and sleep till dinnertime.

time
is something that runs out as fast the sand seeping through the cracks between the fingers and i'm not using the remaining time wisely enough (or maybe not using at all).

perseverence
is something that has been washed out from my system since my o' level had ended and i have no idea how to get it back.

procrastination
is something that i have too much of and i have no intention to stop it anytime soon.

independent people can't afford to be lazy.
lazy people can't be independent.

*sigh* have to start continuing my studying soon.
SOON.

Labels: Phrases

like do you see me using the house phone 24/7?!

my total talktime on the house phone every month is less than 2 hours i tell you!!

having an extension in my room doesn't mean i use it 1 hour everyday mind you!

why don't you go check how many times that darling second daughter of yours has used the phone in 1 day?!

for goodness' sake i have my OWN HANDPHONE that i pay for out of my own FIXED allowance!! why should i use the housephone?!

go dig out the call records if you so wanted to do that!

be my guest and bitch yourself to death and see if i give a damn!

met my bf after lunch and tried to study Stats but ended up almost falling asleep while watching anime.
he does seem to have a knack for picking out musical cards though..
and he made a crater out of my mos burger =.= oh and who said i was skinny??

since we both play MapleStory, there is a Must-Do that couples in MapleStory have to do.

"By the power vested in me, i now pronounce you both.. Maply-Married (?!)"

talk about scary pink shimmering things.
at least now it's easier to find married people in MapleStory; the hearts just DON'T get any brighter.
i wonder why he's the one holding the flowers and i'm holding a dagger (?!)
black pigs for bridesmaids, anyone?

i seem to notice the chinese character in the backdrop.. and we're wearing western clothes?
new fashion statement, no?
so now the pigs are getting married too?! nah, they're just snorting at each other lol..

re-enactment of "The Runaway Bride"?
no.. it's just a ghost in a white flowing dress (carrying a weapon??) with a pig disciple.

after getting fed up of the F3 snort face, you can get the New&Improved "Smoochies" face for 500 MapleCash.
which of course comes with the small print of "expires after 1 month".
come on people, roll your eyes at the AsiaSoft staff who are most probably getting stitches laughing at people who are wasting money on MapleStory Cash Cards.

look!! the hearts are being connected by the weird blue.. neon.. thingy!!
c'mon, act excited!!

get your low-budget Maple wedding complete with a banquet and photographs taken to add to your wedding album!
all these and more starting at S$20!!
get in the MapleValentine mood!

nah.. i don't mean to be sarcastic and ruin the moment (i didn't, did i?) but hey, i'm cynical and i'm having fun doing just that.
at least i don't have to wait until i'm 21 because although it's legal for my age to be married, we still need our parents' consent (reminds you of primary school outings?) and lord knows how my father will break both our legs if i tell him i'm getting married at 2 months to being 18 years old.

i'm not a girl, not yet a woman..
haha.. corny, but strangely it sort of fits the scenario.

well, i'm starting to feel enlightened about the damn accountancy crap and had also confirm that my brain work better after half the people in my HDB block have fallen asleep.
can we please have our exams in the night? ok, maybe not.

met with my bf this morning to study. so, doing just that, i read up a little of PoM this morning and got bored quickly.
predictable? just like what jill told me on the phone just now, PoM is one big chunk of boring text. and i told her maybe i'll use it as my bed-time storybook, stash the notes under my pillow and hopefully everything will percolate upwards through my pillow and into my head.
impossible. yes i do know that.

the 15th of the first month of the lunar year meaning.. i can open my red packets!!
*drumroll~*

Ang Bao Count:13
Total Amount: S$478

Lowest Amount in 1 Ang Bao: S$6
Contributed By: some christian relative who doesn't care much for her sickly father-in-law and stuffed some christian thing in the red packet which pissed my mother off. oh well *shrugs* she has the right to do what she likes anyways.

Highest Amount in 1 Ang Bao: S$200
Contributed By: my maternal grandmother who is countless kilometres away in taiwan, stuck with a bitchy daughter-in-law and 3 grandkids. wait, there are 3 right??

i can't spend the money anyways. it goes into my bank account to pay for my insurance fund.
grr..
well, at least the returns are high, according to my mother.

spur of the moment:
say this 5 times loud and fast "Test Statistics".

turns out that we could just leave after checking out accounting coursework grades.
C+.
not pretty. not pretty at all. must be that class test that i took while i was still sick and didn't have much time to study for which had pulled it down.

at least something entertaining came up so the half hour that we wasted in class was redemned.
let's just say that janice didn't follow us (jill and me) close enough to notice that we took the stairs instead of the lift and so thought that we had abandoned her with a bunch of guys (for goodness' sake, don't you think that it's high time that you try to overcome your fear of the opposite gender?).
she looked damn pissed when jill and i went back to find them so we could pass them the notes that we had left to photocopy.
well, spoiling her last day of school isn't that big of a sin anyways. she has spoiled the first year of my poly life so what's 1 day gonna do to her?
gosh i'm like so happily-guilty. wait, i don't feel guilty at all.
I'M A SINNER!! so sue me, i'm too happy to care. and i'm sure jill is still grinning about this.

went to my bf's house after my wasted-yet-not-very-much-so morning in school and checked his o' level results for english and eMaths that he retook.
well, he had better grades this time round and passed his english.
and i think his mother went to buy 4-D or something. oh well, it's sort of a hope or chance that can be bought anyways. besides, i think the prize money had gone up quite high.
which reminds me, my mother bought 4-D at $1 a few days ago.

who wants to buy "hope" at $1?
selling cheap and fast!

so the 3 of us went opposite school for lunch and chat (or maybe tease) jill about how obvious she actually was all these while and of course more bitchings about janice and how she was trying to copy some traits or habits from us, plus a little on jill's "predicament".
alpha female, yeah?

took the bus home after that and caught quite a lot of the rain which had probably caused the headache i was having till now.
this seriously sucks real bad, getting a headache so easily. and sleeping doesn't even help much with it. damn.

talked with phoenix on the phone after i got home about her weird "situation" and stuffs around that area of content.
some sinister plannings were probably done during that chatting session so i guess i can hope that we get about doing that tomorrow?

*sigh* gotta make use of this small allowance of time when my head isn't torturing me and do some studying.

i don't think we were paying much attention to the lecturer anyway, considering the fact that i slept through parts of the lecture, waking up to talk to (ok, maybe disturb) shikin plus learning this hand-pen twisting thing from eunice.
i can twist it leftwards ad rightwards! isn't anyone proud of me?

played yahoo pool for the first time just now for 1 hour plus with my bf.
speaking of which, after much coughing for the pass few days and much of my nagging (but i don't think this played a big part =.=), he had finally FINALLY gone to the doctor's this morning.
told you not to drag this kinda things.
*sigh* kids. they never listen.
oops. haha!!~

*runs*

**i saw someone "walking" his rabbit when my bf walked me home this evening. this was actually the first time that i actually witness this haha..**

i was too lazy to blog last night so i'm sitting in my school's computer lab for my MBS (computer thingy) class and umm.. making up for yesterday's blog? haha.. *grins weakly*

had my japanese cds role-play just this morning and it went quite well, if i had to say so myself ^_^
other than the fact that we stumbled over 2 or 3 lines, compared to the other groups, our momentum went quite fluidly and we didn't forget as many lines as the rest of the groups.

oh and last night, hx asked me whether i would like to design some characters for her friend who is coming up with a mini game or something and that he may try games afterwards which may be on a bigger scale like MapleStory.
plus PLUS!! she said that if he finds it ok for me to be on the "team" long-term, i can get paid for $1600 to $1800 per month!! wahahaha!! talk about extra cash *hehheh..*
but i'm not sure if i can do this consistently because i'm not really into designing those kinda stuff and i may be too busy to do much of it since much of my time is taken up by my schoolwork and stuff.
oh well, it's "worth" considering anyways ^_^

i hate wednesdays. i have no idea why but I will always have stomachache on wednesdays. why?

WHY?!

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Monday, February 06, 2006

11:02 pm

jill has a small bladder. runs to the toilet every 1-2 hours =.=
jill attended MacroEcons lecture!
jill stole my mentos during MacroEcons lecture.

uh.. i guess that's all the sentences that i can make about jill for today.

our tutor returned us our Macro portfolio today. i got a B!! haha.. i thought i was gonna get a C.
well, jill had that and phoenix had B+ (so good!! *envy) and janice had a B.
don't know what went wrong with that girl. she offered to keep the portfolio and when we were walking opposite tp for lunch, instead of walking along with us like she used to, she started to walk off at a very fast pace without telling us where she was going.
and halfway through our lunch janice smsed jill and told her she couldn't take it and was about to cry.
what? was is because phoenix had higher Macro portfolio marks than her when janice had taken the easy topics and also nix had done her analysis at the last minute?
c'mon, cut out that "i'm such a poor thing, people are being mean to me" thing. for one, it's not working anymore now that everyone has seen through your mask and you're the only one who has no idea.

did a test on my life and stuff by (guess what? drawing a house and then answering questions on it).
go take it. just for the fun of it.
Draw a House

my result?

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

my take on my result?

i'm not much of a leader. if i was forced to be one or given a chance to be, i might be good but i don't want to be the one leading all the time.
i DID draw a cross on my windows. when i was young and fantasising about my future life, i think i DID think of my adulthood as a solitary person enjoying what i have achieved by my own merits. but that don't mean i want to live alone, i mean, that was only fantasising..
i'm only tidy when i feel like it. believe me, that spur of a moment is very rare.
popular? maybe not.
i don't mind being alone and i don't really seek others as if i'm that desperate.
yes i see the pathetic world as what we had made it to be. polution and corruption and all that depressing sights in third world countries. what i believe it to be shall be left just as that: "just a dream."
my longing for love? if it comes then it comes. which of course it did. but even if it hadn't, i wouldn't long for it.
of course i'm not a flirt!! =.=

have fun with your "house" ^_^

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Sunday, February 05, 2006

10:34 pm

well, just when i had set my mind last night to study today.. i ended up playing MapleStory from the time i woke until around 4pm. after which i felt a headache coming on so i took a nap for 1 hour plus.
my father came in my room around then to make me drink birds' nest.
ugh.
it tastes weird, seriously. when my mother told me that i used to drink it like, 10 years ago, i was like, "yeah, i was young and stupid then so i didn't know how vile birds' nest can be."
i have no idea why some of those "expensive-and-rare-and-good-for-the-body" food that people go gaga over just don't appeal to me.
let's see, i hate sea cucumbers, there are certain clam.. thingies that turn me off, i give in to abalone only once in a while and birds' nest are not what they were to me years back (or was it because i grew enough to know that the taste is UGH?).

it's raining outside. finally, after so long and after people have been predicting that it would rain on chinese new year.
am i weird for liking the smell of rain? nah, i'm already too weird for anything in the first place. there is this raw, watery (duh), cold smell about these drops of water from the sky that draws me to the open window and stand there for long moments just to press my nose into the scent.
things far enough would just blur into the backdrop of the falling rain while things near enough would reflect where the droplets fell the split second before.
maybe life is sometimes like this; things that you only have a glimpse at will seem perfect and beautiful until you move close enough to understand that it may be different or worse off then what you initially thought.

hmm.. angsty? i blame it on my tiredness.

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Saturday, February 04, 2006

11:14 pm

as mentioned in the previous entry (it is the previous one, right?), this was the photo of me taken by phoenix when i was "in frustration" in the tp sports hall girl's toilet/changing room on thursday and she had named it my "inner child".
or maybe it's my stressed out twin? haha..
no, i was not as frustrated as i looked in the photo.. i was just tired and phoenix just happens to snaps that *points above* at that moment.

*after many changes and trying to upload the damn photo multiple times.. i couldn't get this post to work properly so i decided to type whatever i wanted to type and then uploading the photo =.= absolute crappiness.*

procrastination.
my favourite passtime.
just can't seem to study the way i did for my o' levels. argh!! i really really want to study! it don't matter if it's gonna make me more of a nerd than i may already be, i just want to study!!

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

8:37 pm

wahaha.. i'm supposed to be studying, not blogging.. oops.. haha..
shh.. don't know don't tell..
LOL.

phoenix brought her digital camera so we (nix, jill and i) took some photos for the fun of it, and maybe to spite janice, during PoM tutorial when we slipped out to the toilet.
phoenix took a picture of me in frustration. lol.. maybe i'll put it up someday. kinda like that photo myself ^_^
life just felt more relaxed without janice being a part of it.

spent a long time chatting (more like bitching about guess-who) with those 2 during lunch and may joined us for a while before i left for japanese cds project meeting.
some things just suddenly look clearer when all the pieces are there. realised just what a great friend janice has been for so long; tormenting jill and said that i sucked up to nix and jill when that had always been her profession.
well, next week will be the last 5 days that i need to see her anyways so.. i'm gonna persevere and maintain my patience.

gotta go do something about my accounts and start memoring my lines for japanese role-play.
my sis got me 2 "lobangs" for tutoring during my march holidays!! haha..
*runs*

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

8:25 pm

finally!! i won't be seeing janice until next week!! woots!!~ stupid ass deliberately took the seat that i saved for jill for our mbs tutorial =.=
we had msAccess practical test today. couldn't finish it.. *sigh* and phoenix almost made me vomit blood and boil all those left in my veins because she kept mixing up the different brackets that were used in the calculated field in the queries.

nix: (whispers) shit i'm stuck again.
me: (pss..) *enlarges equation font size*
nix: (whispers again) die.. why cannot work?!

and this continued for a good 5 to 10 minutes before she finally completes that part of the whole question =.= good going, girl. haha..

just when i thought he could come up with no more ways to burp, my bf "amazes" me with another one of his burps =.=
i guess he has enlightened me about why "burp" was spelt as "burp" because when he "burped", it really sounded like that- "BURP".
well.. i didn't hear the "bu-" because he had already started his burp (o.0) but i heard the "-rp".
omg this was the weirdest burp that i've heard form him yet and i am not even looking forward to the next, if he has another, that is (gosh..).

which reminds me, 1 year has passed since we started well.. 1 year ago? lol..
anyways, for people who have no idea how a relationship is, don't go around saying how you envy those who have someone beside them.
it's simple at times but it's also hard work when you need to get pass your own insecurities.
nothing is 100% guarentee plus warentee will work out for sure. anything will have its own ups-and-downs. shows and stories are just what they are: shows and stories that only show the bright side of things. life will never be a bed of roses.

i came across an old diary of mine last night after a long phone call with my bf. kinda interesting to read through my past. other than realising that my mind lags by 2 years, i saw my old self.
back when i was in secondary school, a few of my friends have already started relationships with god-knows-who, all the weird people that i have never heard before.
i thought it was good, i mean everyone should have the right to their own happiness, but just like a how a computer breaks down, they have their own problems. i guess it's only natural but it had only made me more sure that no matter how much more mature i am than my peers (if i were, in the first place) i wouldn't know how to handle these sort of things then and that i'm really just another aries who values her friends and freedom much more than anything else. or maybe i was just being insecure then.

bleah.. i have no idea where this post is heading but wth, this is my blog.
anyways, it wasn't to say that i don't want to have a relationship then, also it didn't mean that i didn't have anyone i liked then. i just don't want to rush into things and end up regretting that i've wasted that part of my life away (so i guess i should be grateful that he didn't give me a reply?).
i know my time will come and i wasn't about to go and be desperate by going after any guy who appears in front of me. the theory about "going after your happiness" isn't supposed to be applied that way.
i guess taking one step at a time plus waiting for my "time" did me some good because, well, it's been a good 1 year (despite everything yes i still think that the past year has been good) and personally, i think that proves quite a lot since we went through what we, well.. went through.

i wonder if there would be anyone who made it to the bottom of this post without skipping over any parts or didn't skim through the whole entry but well, you've made it to the end of this post! congrats! woots!

*eh.. cq ar, tagboards aren't meant to be used the way you used them last night.*

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