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And my narcissistic self.
well it's a nice feeling to wake up to 3 birthday smses (normally i don't even get a normal sms when i turn on my handphone after waking up) and to get more smses till the last minute, which was sent by kelly.
i'm 18~
i'm 18~
i can buy booze legally~ (haha..)
saw quite a few tk people today.
let's see.. there was joan (chen) in ajisen, and it was my first time eating ajisen by the way.
and then there was tl and nabilah at that toy shop next to the puzzle shop at parkway but i doubt that nabilah remembered me (oh well, most of those people don't anyways).
after that we (my bf and i) went to mcdonald's and saw clar there (working of course) and i saw bernice but she didn't like, wave, or anything so i couldn't say for sure if she saw me. although it isn't very difficult for her to miss the 2 people sitting diagonally away from her in plain view.
and i couldn't read my book in peace everytime i tried today.
why? because although he needed to study for his upcoming exam, my bf still finds time to irritate me to the point that i couldn't read 1 page straight without interruptions.
=.=
i will have my revenge^_^ don't worry.
oh and i've stirred a new craving from myself for this japanese actor, watanabe ken.
he acted in The Last Samurai, Batman Begins and of course Memoirs of a Geisha.
gah! voted one of the most sexiest men in last year's poll or something.
shall go drool at him more.
select 5 people to pass the love on:
1. ci qing (or else he's going to complain that i didn't tag him)
2. marianne (i always forget if it's double-r or double-n)
3. yee long
4. yip teng
5. whoever wants to do this quiz, just fill in your name here.
**refer to the previous post for the rest of the questions.**
my legs are still sore from the few hours of ice-skating yesterday at jurong.
went out with ky, fx (ky's bf) and cy for my sort-of-birthday-celebration.
we went to heeren's first (and as usual they were late again) because i wanted to order w-inds.'s new album at mise but i was too late to order so i got put on the waiting list.
afterwhich, ky wanted to take some neoprints so we spent almost 30 minutes taking the photos and decorating them (because there was unlimited time for decoration).
cy had suggested that we go ice-skating so we took the mrt to jurong.
it was just the most boring thing to take the ride on the red-mrt line.
cy took the opportunity to catch up on her sleep while ky, fx and i tried to make up our minds on what to have for dinner but ended up doing stupid things throughout the ride.
we realised that doing dumb things on long mrt rides is a very normal thing. at least for us.
we got off at jurong, went up to pizza hut (at a shopping centre that i don't know the name of) and took a table before cy and i left for the toilet.
it was until then that we found out that some weird guy in all black was stalking us from the moment we got on the mrt in somerset (i asked if he had been following us before we got on the mrt but we couldn't say for sure).
cy thought that maybe he just wanted to ask for directions and decided to be kind and listen to what he wanted to say.
turns out that he asked for the "third girl", which happens to be ky. cy and i laughed to ourselves for a while before realising that something doesn't feel right and walked off a little faster.
he continued to trail us to the first floor toilet but was gone when we came out a few minutes later.
i joked that maybe he wanted to ask the "third girl" about the "last guy", which is fx, and he gave me a "look" after i made my statement.
went upstairs to ice-skate after lunch. yes yes i know, useless me, who can't swim, can't cycle, can't rollerblade properly, and wants to ice-skate?!
kinda shocked myself that i didn't object violently to the idea. oh well, like what cy and fx brainwashed, learn a new thing on my birthday (which isn't really on yesterday but, heck).
fell on my butt once and damn, does it hurt. at least i wasn't crazy to the point of checking for a blue-black in the mirror when i got home.
it was fun, come to think of it. the only down part was that only when we were about to leave, i was starting to get the hang of ice-skating.
damn.
this is where i start to complain, because he sort of "dared" me to.
met up with my bf after that for dinner, which was the biggest reason why we had to leave the skating rink.
he was rushing me ever since the night before about when we were going to meet up for dinner.
i don't like to be rushed especially when the rest of us didn't really follow a schedule that day. it's more relaxed to just do whatever with the time that we have and he had to rush me, the birthday girl!
ok, i'm done with the ranting.
anyways, we went marina square for dinner at this restaurant called "changing appetites" (correct me if i'm wrong).
cy and i were still semi-full at that time so we just had cheesecake and a drink.
go there for the cheesecakes on tuesdays! it's at half price!
went home after that, and i really have to thank these few close friends i have for spending the day with me ^_^
and also my bf for the koda kumi cd. see i didn't leave you out, ok?
ok so that's yesterday, and this post is getting long. u can come back after "these short messages" or some commercial thing but there isn't one so hey! *snap snap* here! i'm not done yet.
i went to pasir ris for the class chalet that had in actual fact had started yesterday but i had to compromise because yesterday was for ky-and-gang.
chalets are the few rare places where you can see guys without their hair spiked in every direction possible.
it's hilarious, especially fu hao's never-seen-before-flat-hair. instant laughter the moment i entered the place.
rushed upstairs to disturb phoenix, who was waken up by all the noisy people downstairs (actually it was just that damn fu hao singing) but was still determined to sleep and not get up from the bed.
zy went ahead with putting raw things in my lunch (which was prepared specially for me, see i'm so unique^_^). he made, or rather prepared, soba, with raw quail's eggs in the sauce =.=
chased him from our unit to the main entrance and back, trying to put ice (that i broke off the melting "bowl" that he made out of ice for the noodles) down his t-shirt.
he said he was getting dizzy from all that running, and since i was kind *guffaws* i let him off and allowed him to put the ice in his t-shirt by himself.
but still, thanks for the food ok?
^_^
they were going to have chocolate fondue and crabs and giant prawns for dinner!
gah..
but i had to leave early, no thanks to my mother.
called for a cab and picked up my bf at his school before heading home.
wow, this entry is long.
did you survive all the way down here?
haha.. anyways, i'm going off to watch the dvds that i rented that day. out of which i had finished Matrix: Revolutions (i for one, am very sure that neo did not die) and am still left with Anger Management after watching The Last Samurai in a while.
this year's birthday was the best, if i have to say so myself and it's all thanks to these great people around me^_^
gah! love you guys loads!
select 5 people to pass the love on:
1. ka ying
2. pauline
3. jing teng
4. sui lan
5. mun bbun
Here It Is: What were you doing 10 years ago?
let's see.. i was 8 and was still studying in taiwan 10 years ago in march.
i watched sailormoon every evening before going to the park for a walk with a neighbour and his dog.
and i would complete my homework before the end of every school day. yup, those were the young, innocent and studious days.
5 songs that you know the lyrics right off your head:
1. forever memories (w-inds.)
2. lian ai-ing (mayday)
3. heaven (ayumi)
4. yakusoku no kakera (w-inds. then again, i know almost every lyric to all their songs)
5. pieces of me (ashlee simpson. if i really had to put 1 english song)
5 things you would do if you're a millionaire:
1. take a first-class flight to japan and stay there until i'm done touring all the places that i've always wanted to see.
2. buy all the manga that i've always wanted to have.
3. get a house of my own, size doesn't matter, and furnish it my way.
4. buy over tachibana keita of w-inds. and have him work for me. oh, the things i can make him do *grins evilly*.
5. donate to the spca. seriously, it's just too small to cope with just the stray cats in singapore alone.
5 bad habits:
1. i'm lazy. period.
2. i bite the straw that i drink from.
3. i sit in the worst position possible when i'm at home in front of my laptop.
4. i don't clean my room often. then again, who cleans it themselves?
5. when i'm watching tv, i can't hear anything or anyone else.
5 things i like doing:
1. reading.
2. listening to music while playing MapleStory.
3. eating instant noodle on a rainy day.
4. drawing, or ramdomly sketching.
5. listening to my friends or my bf talk.
things i'll never buy, wear or get a new one again:
sony ericsson handphone.
samsung handphone.
inspirational and/or motivational books (they are good cures for insomnia though)
5 favourite toys:
1. my laptop.
2. my handphone.
3. my mp3 (although i haven't been using it during the holidays).
4. my mechanical pencil. it's been with me ever since i started manga drawings at the end of PSLE.
5. the only nail clipper that i would ever use.
i'm gonna go order/buy w-inds.'s new album tomorrow!
and then i'm going randomly walking with ky and gang before dinner (maybe at marina bay or something, as suggested by ky).
haha.. finally get to eat dinner outside after so long^_^
worse of all, crappy things just don't end there for today.
there seems to be some sort of uploading problem when i was trying to post the screenshots that i took in ossyria onto my blog.
nevertheless, i perservered and put it on my geocities webpage.
here here, just go see it. not that it would get on my nerves if you didn't see it anyways.
had some sort of early dinner/celebration thing for my birthday that's coming next thursday.
it's the usual fried noodles, fried chicken and then 2 or 3 red packets before finally, the cake.
hopefully my mother don't take the money from the red packets and deposit into the bank because my allowance for the rest of this month is running low at only $10.
for once the cake doesn't have that much cream. what is it with birthday cakes having more cream than the actual cake?
and like always (except for a few times), it's a chocolate cake. the whole cake is practically chocolate.
3 small slices of chocolate on top of the dripping chocolate mousse, with a sensible amount of chocolate cream that isn't overly sweet between the layers of chocolate sponge cake.
hehheh.. talk about sinful food.
i guess it's back to mapling for now^_^
let's see.. i was forcefully taken away from my slumber this morning at 8am because i was supposed to accompany my bf to raffles hospital for his medical checkup for polytechnic entry.
to put it lightly, we were stranded there for around 3 hours because the clinic section was only open in the morning during weekends and practically everyone else there was doing the checkup.
so i read the manga that i rented yesterday, Black Cat (it's good, go read it), for less than 2 hours because i had only rented 2 books (1 manga per hour, that's my speed), and then was entertained by my handphone game for another 1 hour or so before my bf came back from the checkup and we stoned together for a few minutes while waiting for his receipt to come.
had lunch at his place after that and ended up sleeping while he played some weird WWE-lookalike game on his PS2 that had came back after yet another repair.
seriously, i had already lost count of how many times that PS2 had been sent to the repairs.
i had wanted to post the screenshots that i took when i went to Ossyria yesterday when i was playing MapleStory.
but considering how late it was getting plus the fact that i felt like i hadn't been sleeping enough for the past few days, i think i'll put it off until tomorrow.
gah! i could just go on a murderous rampage right this instant.
i would seriously, relentlessly, gladly, kill someone in front of me in the most sadistic gruesome way that is worse than all those that ky and i had come up with combined, if he or she pisses me off just by a bit.
it makes me wonder just how desperate my mother is about making me loathe her.
some help here, anyone?!
MapleStory is having a new patch tomorrow! major patch! no wonder there wasn't any patches for the past few weeks.
if you're interested, go check out the other Maple servers websites in other countries. they have so many new lands than compared to the SEA server!
*envy*
anyways, that's tomorrow so how a bit of yesterday and a few more yesterdays?
let's see.. i finished my Final Fantasy 1 but i gave up on FF2. the latter feels boring and i'm more used to the normal leveling up the character thing as compared to leveling equipments and stats depending on how you attack and how you take attacks.
i finished watching Full House yesterday with my mother who walked in my room the night before last in the middle of the show and made me stay up until almost 3am to watch until disc 8.
Full House is quite different from most korean serials that i had came across. there weren't a whole lot of tear-jerking scenes coming in between the show every 5 minutes (not to say there weren't, just less and not as draggy as other shows), it has more humour than most korean serials which is a good thing when you compare them, and of course there's a happy ending.
meaning?
which meant that no one died, no one had a terminal disease and no one committed suicide.
go watch it ok? haha..
oh and i downloaded another Gameboy Advance game!
pokemon emerald! haha.. playing pokemon again..
there didn't seem to be other nice GBA games.
ok, now that we're done with the "yesterdays", now for a little of "today".
i don't know if people know this but it's White Day today.
what's White Day? it's like a reverse of Valentines' Day, to put it in simplest term.
all you have to do is to get gifts for the people who have given you a gift on Valentines' Day.
didn't know there was such a thing until i read the manga Cardcaptor Sakura three years back.
well, if you're feeling kind and generous enough, go spend some cash and time on that few gifts.
i'll just.. rot at home and play my games.
simple pleasures, you know?
^_^
so, i guess whoever's reading this blog of mine has to wait for a very long time for the next update.
oh so why am i able to blog now? because i'm hoggin my bf's computer right now haha..
anyways, until next time (which is don't know when), you will be seeing this same entry everyday for a very long time..
anyways, i wanted to look up some character/clothes designs for that game that hx's friend is doing for his poly final year project which i'm designing the characters for.
well, i've always known that i'm not cut out for designing things like this. people who had seen me draw would have noticed that all the clothes that i drew my characters in were always wearing simple tee-shirts, button-down shirts, plain jeans, skirts, or just the typical japanese school uniform.
maybe the inspiration for "cool" clothes would come up once in a while but to make it constant for 8 characters? it's a little strain on my simple amoebic mind (haha..).
then i remembered having a book that had character drawings in them that my aunt bought me years back so i took it out and flipped through it. some were ok but i got too bored to continue drawing so i ended up reading manga haha..
so much for perseverence.
another day passed without me talking to my father and only exchanging a few words between me and my mother (i know it should be "my mother and me" but who cares?! i don't give a damn about her anyways) just because of that one statement i made a few nights back.
hey, i didn't say it with sarcasm or anything so who's being childish now?
and i seriously doubt my mother's tastebuds.
that weird fish with thick skin (that don't have scales, as confirmed by my sister) that she cooked today had this weird bitter taste that she didn't notice at all!!
it was like so bitter it's vile (ok maybe only to me) and it's worse than fish stomach (i don't eat fish stomach, by the way).
and when we were about to finish eating, my father said, "don't buy this type next time. it tastes a little bitter."
little.
little, he says.
for goodness' sake "little" is an understatement!
who knows, maybe my tastebuds are more sensitive, or maybe i was (and still am) too used to my grandmother's cooking that was definitely way better than my mother's.
well, my father came back from some business trip from japan yesterday and brought back a few animation stuff toys from the exclusive Studio Ghibli store (you know, the guy who drew spirited away? hayao miyazaki-sensei?) and some miniature cat and dog models.
and i thought since his mood seems ok, i wouldn't be told off for the puniest things or for things that i seriously am not responsible for.
well well well, my parents never cease to surprise me.
personally, i think that an eleven year old is old enough to pick the meat from a fish all by herself (with the exception of my dear friend ky, who had a hell of a problem eating from an actual fish on her own) but no.. my mother had to keep making me pick out the meat for my sister every single time fish is served for any meal.
so i told her that she's old enough to do it herself and if you keep doing things for her, she will never want to do things on her own.
hey, i'm doing this for my sister's own good. she'll just expect people to do things for her and never try to think of ways to do things by herself.
ok fine, she says that my sister don't have arms that are long enough to reach the fish so i shifted the plate nearer to her so that she could pick the meat easier and what do i get for my earlier suggestion?
i got told off by that moronic father of mine who moved that plate of fish further away from me and snapped "it isn't as if we begged you to do it."
fine. so you didn't beg me. well, i guess then i have no obligation to do as you asked. then again, even if you did beg, i might just not do it also.
for goodness' sake, must we help her every step of her life? must we fill her plate for her when she could have done it perfectly well herself?
yeah, so i didn't do a good job of eating from a fish when i was her age but through trial and error i made it this far, didn't i?
doing everything for her will just make her depend on others and not on her own capabilities. she will just end up sitting there and waiting for others to lay out everything perfectly in front of her.
am i not being a caring elder sister?
for one, i wouldn't mind looking out for her and protecting her but she is the one who has to first learn how to take care of herself.
strong people don't grow up waiting for people to do things for them. they try it themselves and if it's wrong, they attempt it again until it is done to their satisfaction.
you don't see me doing all her maths homework for her and just tell her the answer without making her think of the steps she should do before reaching the answer.
you don't see me flipping through the dictionary everytime she comes across a difficult word and not teach her how to use the dictionary herself.
oh heck that dumb thing about "now we know how to bring up a kid properly now that she's the second kid."
if that's the case, damn am i glad that i was brought up by my grandparents instead.
yes they dote on me. almost every other relative on my father's side pampers me. my grandparents love me to death but they let me figure out things on my own.
they let me do my own testings and occasional trips. all they did was to tell me that there's a better way to do it.
they guide me. they don't take care of everything for me.
to me, that is sensible pampering.
doing everything for a child is not pampering; that is ruining a child's own ability to handle things for him/herself.
i would prefer having to experience obstacles and problems than to have a life where everything is smooth-sailing. it is only through all the falling down that we learn.
to learn the right things to do, the right way around things, the right decisions to make.
screw my father for wanting me to get into a junior college so that "your path is cleared of problems and everything will flow smoothly."
i want my life to be imperfect. i want problems. i want obstacles.
if there is no current going against me then life has seriously lost its interest. there would be nothing to live for when there is no anticipation to each new day, knowing that you have an obstacle to conquer.
these are things that makes life meaningful.
and TWO adults can't figure that on their own?!
SCREW THEM.
i remembered having this huge arguement with her back in primary5 and we didn't talk to each other since then.
until secondary1 when i found out that she got in the same secondary school as i did, and also realising that it was a damn stupid thing for the both of us to grudge over and to lose this friendship to, that i decided to end all this.
so i apologised and she said she had already forgotten the whole incident and told me that it was ok.
i thought we could see each other in school everyday like we used to years ago but she only made it to school twice (she already came down with the illness then). then her conditions got worse and she had to stay at home. not a big problem because i could still "disturb" her there.
finally she ended up in the hospital and one day in secondary2, another primary school friend called me and told me over the phone, crying, that our friend had passed away.
well, there had been the sending her off on her last journey thing, seeing her for the last time thing, and then things calmed down after a while.
i mean, how bad could we have reacted? we were only 14 then, and although it's not a kiddy age, we were still too young to fully comprehend the real meaning of death.
but what really hit me afterwards was that we had wasted 2 years of our lives and our friendship by holding that grudge that was not there anymore. sometimes, life is just too short to keep putting hopes on a tomorrow that may never come for us to say "i'll go apologise tomorrow" or, "i'll go see her tomorrow".
i'm no sappy person who goes "oh, i'm gonna live my live on her behalf" or "i'll help her live the life she never had". my life is mine to lead and my paths to choose, not to be affected by the obligation for another.
what has been taught by her death was to not have any regrets by the end of 1 day that would carry on to the next (well, i didn't really accomplish that..) and that risks and chances are meant to be taken.
who knows what good will come out when you dare to take the chance to make something out of nothing? what turns in life will come when you risk getting hurt or hurting someone to trust your own judgement about things?
maybe i'm more comfortable taking risks than most people i know (not to say that i'm completely fearless about it) but it just feels like an itch (metaphorically) when you see someone you know not wanting to try even if some good may come out of it.
life has its challenges and there isn't much point to it if you won't take the chance to find out if that pithole in your path conceals a treasure or a hidden swamp of crocodiles (don't ask why crocodiles. it was the first dangerous thing that came to my mind).
anyways, i'm not saying everyone should be risk-taking. do it only if you're comfortable with that, but it's a chance wasted if you don't.
ok, enough sadness.
now for a random piece of something.
I CAN'T FIND MY ONLY FRIGGIN NAIL-CLIPPER THAT I EVER USE!!
dammit..
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