given that i was brought up by my grandparents and even after they put me back in my parents' care, it was just mostly my mother because my father was working overseas and i used to see him like, twice, or even once a year.
surely this will mean lesser things in common to talk about.
plus he always has these dumb expectations of me.

be a dentist!
go to jc!
your wasting your time in poly!
blah blah blah.

everything i say or do is forever too childish, too naive, not good enough for him.
what, even loyalty and pride i have for my secondary school and other affiliations is considered kiddish?!
don't waste time on manga! don't waste time on online games!
i'm having a term break here?
you can't expect me to study 24/7 during a term break, can you?

if he doesn't try to understand what are the thing i'm saying, how can he keep saying that i don't open up to him?
if he doesn't try to understand what are the things that are important to me, how can he see things from my point of view and not just deny everything i say or do?
if he doesn't try to stop his obstinate thinking and try to listen, for a change, how can he assume that he has the right to keep victimising himself, oh how sad that his daughter doesn't talk to him or try to be intimate!

sheesh!
for one, i'm not a touchy-feely person.
and two, does it always have to be me who starts a conversation?
i'm not the one in this family that doesn't say a word about what happens outside this house, not telling the rest of us where he works and stuff like that, even if someone asked.

oh, here i am, cracking my head over this father-daughter thing and for all i know, he doesn't even bother anymore.
fine, whatever.
i don't want to give a damn about this anymore anyways.

get me disney channel, somebody!!~

this is one part from the movie that i found on youtube.
start of something new.
nice song..

i want disney channel!!! argh!!!~

START OF SOMETHING NEW
livin' in my own world
didn't understand
that anything can happen
when you take a chance

i never believed in
what i couldn't see
i never opened my heart
to all the possibilities

i know
that something has changed
never felt this way
and right here tonight
this could be the

(chorus)
start of something new
it feels so right
to be here with you
and now, lookin' in your eyes
i feel in my heart
the start of something new

now who'd of ever thought that
we'd both be here tonight
and the world looks so much brighter
with you by my side

i know
that something has changed
never felt this way
i know it's for real
this could be the

(chorus)

i never knew that it could happen
till it happened to me
i didn't know it before but now
it's easy to see

it's the start of something new
it feels so right to be here with you
and now, lookin' in your eyes
i feel in my heart
that it's the start of something new
it feels so right to be here with you
and now, lookin' in your eyes
i feel in my heart
the start of start of something new
start of something new

start of something new

i think i better ask the group to start on our project.
the first week of the term break is going to end soon and we didn't do any work at all.
this isn't a good start.
we musn't procrastinate on projects anymore.
i'll sms julia about it tomorrow morning, when i fully wake up after laying in bed doing nothing from the moment i open my eyes.

yup.
better stop procrastinating.

"i -breath- am -breath- your father!"

and we got very much amused by the hokkien version that is so hilarious that it doesn't do justice to the solemness of star wars.
we came up with the japanese version too.

"ore wa -breath- omae no otou-san da -breath-!"
"iyaa!!~"

she wanted to stay overnight today but her mother got pissed over her brother and for some reason, that means she can't stay over too.

i wanted to buy some alcoholic drink on my own just so i could show off my ic and prove that i'm 18.
but the person didn't ask to check my ic.

do i look so old that there isn't a need to see my ic?!
*cries and wilts in a corner*

anyways, i bought barcadi. orange flavoured "sparkling water", as added by a tag on the bottle.
doesn't feel at the least alcoholic, except for that puny bit of bitter aftertaste.

oh well, i guess it's back to mapling.
must.. level.. UP!

feet in the waters, mind in the clouds, eyes searching for my answer at the end of that ever-expanding blue sky.

hey girl, tell me what you saw at the end of the horizon that day..

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had a hell of a gastric yesterday, all the way until i slept, and i could still feel a little of the pain now.
worst attack of gastric. everrr.
i am so staying away from coffee for the rest of my two weeks holiday.

just before my mid-sem tests started a few days ago, for some unknown reason that was beyond me, my handphone ceased to detect my SIM card.
so i pretty much survived almost one week without a handphone.
at first i thought maybe it's spoiled, so i borrowed an extra one from ky.
turns out the item in question was my SIM card.

oh, and i was so happy, thinking that finally i could change a new handphone.
=.=

so this afternoon i went to parkway with my mother and sister in tow to get a new SIM card.
the person said i have to wait for around two hours for the new card to get activated.
so much for technology.
*NOTE* after which i found out that all my contacts were gone and i couldn't transfer them from the old card because, well, it's spoiled!!

anyways, after a brief window-shopping session (i saw HYDE's new solo album! i want it i want it i want it!!) we went to katong next because i wanted to get my hair cut and have been going on and on about it for weeks.

when we got there, the salon i always went to (ever since sec4) was closed, maybe for cleaning? because i saw a staff at the back of the salon busy with something.
my mother then decided to go upstairs to get my sister a new pair of slippers/sandals and we loitered around for a while more before checking the salon again.

turns out they weren't closed for cleaning.
they were closed for the day.

just my luck, i tell you.
oh well, i can't leave katong without having done something meaningful, so i went to my beloved manga shop!
i rented eight manga and got myself a saiyuki poster while (surprise surprise) my mother rented SIXTEEN manga by her favourite (or should i say, only) manga-ka, plus a cardcaptor sakura poster for my sister.

for no reason, i'm kinda hooked onto B'z, this rock duo from japan.
the songs are nice, even the ballads are rock-ish.
and the duo had been set up since 1988! gosh, that's as old as i am!
it just shows that they have that extra something to keep them still famous in the everchanging entertainment business, while new stars kept popping up now and then before getting forgotten by others in no time flat.

what's shocking is that the singer of B'z, this rock kind of singer, screaming and shouting into the microphone, all over the stage in the patented frenzy of rock and roll singers, with tattoos on his arm and wrist, swinging the mic stand all over the place, GRADUATED FROM A JAPANESE UNIVERSITY AS A MATHEMATICS TEACHER AND HAS A TEACHER'S LICENSE TO TEACH MATHS!!

omg.. talk about not judging a book by it's cover.

and the other half of the duo, the guitarist, used to open a guitar shop or worked in one (i'm not very sure), speaks so soft he can compete with the careless whisperer of singapore idol.
but the moment he picks up a guitar, any kind of guitar..
the trasition shocks you to no end.

this is the link to the pv of "ai no bakudan", currently one of my faves.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4yBcn5fdp8

another damn good rock song: "shodou"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5I7NbhddEEY

"OCEAN". a ballad, which happens to be also the theme song for the japanese drama "umizaru evolution", the sequel to movie "umizaru" and prequel to "umizaru: LIMIT OF LOVE".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFMM2tcOvPE

oh and i broke that "keeping-my-laptop-shut-till-the-tests-are-over" vow thingy.
i didn't even have the perseverance to start it, much less leave this electronic device alone on my desk for four days.

damn gastric..

she woke up me one hour after my planned wake up time.
=.=

anyways, i got up for my next lesson, which wasn't on, as julia sms-ed me just as i was about to leave my house.
so in the end the only lesson i turned up for was the LSCM tutorial. and it occurred to me that if i had skipped that too (because our tutor didn't take our attendance), i don't even need to go to school!
well, if not for the entrepreneurship proposal that i had to hand in by today..

our entrepreneurship tutor said my business idea could possibly work in real life!
i wanted to get wy and aaron to join the entrepreneurship competition together, because their idea was somewhat like mine.
mine was to have an online catalogue (full of japanese stuff, of course) where people can email us which ones they like, and we could find what they want if it isn't in the list already.
wy and aaron's idea (strangely, are the same) was to have a cosplay shop.
since it's all japanese-ish, we could like merge the ideas together.

but aaron had to go "i'm a practical person and i don't want to take risks.."
like, what makes you think we must start that business, and it's not as if we're guarenteed to win in the first place.
oh well, i'll go make wy join it with me. at least he's more willing to try.

term tests are like, next week!
which makes it two days away (counting today)!
and i haven't started studying anything!
sometimes i amaze myself with my level of procrastination.
so i guess i'm going to lay off my blog for a few days, probably not even turning on my laptop, just so i could study in peace without distractions.
i'm going on another term test hiatus!

oh and before i forget, these are the photos that we took during CCN day last friday.

shiawase ne~
*contently sighs*

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