1. the waves at the singapore river are actually quite strong.
2. there are different prices for the ticket to take the river taxi. don't assume it will always be the kids' price if that's what you paid the last time you went on the ride.
3. there isn't really much to see at the "carnival" thingy at the bay. or maybe it's because we (my bf and i) were there too early.
4. stupid cd stores only import the dvd version of ayu's (miss)understood album and not the cd-only version. strangely, they have the cd+dvd-only version without the photobook when this wasn't even in the cataglogue in ayu's website at all. can someone please explain this to me?
5. i can never finish one fish&co. meal. so people, please don't bring me there to eat.
6. Fearless is a very good movie. the action sequence is very very very nice. makes me wanna watch Kill Bill and the sequel because they have the same director for the action sequence.
7. metallic scanners sometimes bleep for no reason. so people who made those scanners bleep, you haven't been turned into a terrorist subconsciously. it's probably because it lagged from the person who went through before you, which in my case happens to be my bf (hmm.. i wonder.. hmm..).
8. there is absolutely nothing to do at the istana. NOTHING!! so don't be fooled by the large crowd at its gates. that is the result of the queue at the metallic scanners.
9. stupid mise (a shop at the top level of the heerens that sell japanese pop cds and other merchandises) hasn't got my membership card ready since i made it last year which made me succumb to using that crumpled piece of PAPER that they call MEMBERSHIP whenever i buy something from there. anyway that's not the point. they don't import taiwan press cds?! since when?! my w-inds. cds and vcds are taiwan press! why don't they have taiwan press for ayu's cd?! GAH!!
10. mothers (or maybe fathers.. but then again, perhaps both) find immense pleasure in forcing their kids to eat stuff that they don't like to eat. dammit stop forcing me to eat sea cucumbers!!

kinda boring at home today but i guess it's the same for every 2nd day of the chinese new year.
finished memoirs of a geisha this evening around 5pm yay^_^
now i gotta start scouting for books to read during my march holidays. plus i need to find some unlucky-oops, i mean, some kid- in.. need.. of tuition during my holidays so i can have a little more to spend on say.. books/novels, cds, or a few new tee-shirts and a new skirt.
skirt? since when do i start wearing skirts?!
maybe it's just as what jill told me, when u starting wearing them, you'll get hooked. lol.. besides, i have to have something else to wear to my distant aunt's wedding dinner other than my usual jeans (which i thnk is starting to have a pathetically-worn look) and tee-shirt.
ok i may still wear a normal tee-shirt but the point is the bottom. it's a wedding dinner after all.

argh! all of a sudden i recall that i need to save up for a new set of formal wear and maybe a new sling bag because my OP bag is starting to look a little.. too young for my age. not that i'm old but.. well.. yar.. *sweatdrops*

omg i cant hold it off much longer, i have to get my hands on the newest ayumi hamasaki album!! i think i'll go buy it tomorrow!! gotta have my "thirst" quenched haha.. *faints*

speaking of red packets, i think i have around $400 ++, as jt counted to me when she came over to my house a few hours ago. she told me that most of my red packets have $50 notes and the smallest note i have is the $10 ones.
whoa now that's scary, since i only got around $150 last year.
oh well, it doesn't mean that i have extra cash to spend anyways. it goes straight inside my bank plus i don't have a habit of spending that money when i get allowance every month. also, i rather spend the money that i save from my allowances.
good way to save money haha.. or maybe it's just because i'm not much of a spendthrift.

what i don't like about this day that i have to visit my great-grandmother's house. well, technically it's her house but since she moved to australia with a few of my grandaunts last year, it's my grandaunt-in-law's house now.
i can never have a proper meal there. i know i should be nice and try to eat some stuff but when it comes to food that one isn't accustomed to, there is only so much that he/she can stomach.
not that it's not good, it's just that i'm just not used to the taste.
so i ended up eating instant noodles when i got home at around 4pm.
plus my distant cousin is such an anti-social brat. she practically sulks in a corner the whole time and only talks to her parents or grandmother (my grandaunt-in-law).

my distant aunt is getting married this may and they have a seat saved for me for their wedding dinner so i guess i'm obliged to attend.
since there's food, for what reason should i not go? haha..
from what i heard from my mother, there was a point in time (or maybe a few points in time) that he had wanted to leave her but considering that she could always get a lot of money (from my grandaunt-in-law, her mother) from time to time, he gave themselves another chance or something along that line.
don't know if that's true but hopefully things work out even if that aunt of mine isn't a total goody-two-shoes, after all, she's a nice person other than the fact that she likes to take money from her mother when she has a job already.

one other reason why i dislike chinese new year is that there will always be this dish that my grandmother will cook. it's not that i don't like it, in fact, i like it a lot because of the mushrooms and the meat but you see, she will always put in sea cucumber.
now you would most probably say that i could always avoid that thing and just eat the other ingredients but my mother will always ALWAYS force me to eat it.
dammit! do you see me telling you that carrot is good and attempt to shove it down your throat when you told me that you don't like carrots?!
different people have different tastes ok? so stop trying to stuff that weird, jelly-worm-like-with-blister-and-bumps-all-over.. THING into my system!! GAH!!

i want that ayumi hamasaki (miss)understood cd!! argh!!
i think i will have enough finances left over from january to buy it, YAY ^_^

for one, i think it's excusable that i don't want to get up from bed at 9 or 10am like i do whenever i don't have lesson, given the fact that i was drained for the past few days because of school projects.
but nooooooo~ my mother had to act as if i had committed some crime by literally getting out of bed at almost 12pm.
in actual fact i was already up at 9.40am but i feel like lazing around since i don't have to worry about schoolwork for the time being. so i took memoirs of a geisha to my bed, lay down and read until almost 12pm, which was when my parents and my younger sister came back from the beach (at least that's where i thought they went..). moments later, i got scolded for not being awake enough to get up when i woke up and was treated as if i would never get my ass off my bed.
dammit! i was tired! can't you cut me some slack?!

anyways, being bored because the real event on the eve of chinese new year doesn't start until dinner time, i sat in front of my laptop and played MapleStory until 4pm.
normally i would have sat there, my ass glued to my chair and my eyes stuck to the screen but i was starting to have a headache to i went to lay down on my bed and ended up asleep.
well, under normal circumstances, a sleeping person wouldn't be able to hear anyone calling out to him/her until being called a few times in a row. plus my door was closed as i had turned on my air-con.
and my father had to act as if i was some spoilt brat that needed some crappy red carpet to be laid out before i could be escorted out of my room when i actually was too asleep to respond to the calls that dinner was ready.
like hello? if you don't know what's going on then don't jump to stupid conclusions. wth is wrong with people nowadays..

seriously, i think this is a very bad start for the lunar year and stuff but to heck with it, it's not like i give a damn anyways. superstition has never been in my system and never will be.
what kind of life doesn't have it's ups and downs? i've had my fair share of it and going against the flow makes things more interesting.
when i have the energy for it, in any case.

by the way, happy chinese new year, people. hopefully everyone else had a better day than me.

ANYWAYS~ (haha.. *faints*) i have to find a day to start studying for accounting2 because i totally suck at accounting.
plus i need to copy the notes for the 2 lectures that i didn't attend for stats and PoM.
*sigh* oh well.. at least i can have peace the coming week because janice won't be in singapore from the coming wednesday until that sunday.
muahahaha~ maybe the heavens have been answering my pleas lol..

went to my bf's house after today's lessons to watch his full metal alchemist anime movie. but we stopped watching halfway to watch russell peters' stand up comedy show.
my bf was kinda amused by russell peter's "one china" theory: "i love women too much to marry. because then it would be loving woman. the disease that married men have: one china."

and my mother is nagging about my room being not tidied for chinese new year.
hey woman, it's not my fault that i've been busy with projects and stuff this whole week all right?
i'll go clean it up later when i'm done playing MapleStory. haha..

ang bao ang bao.. come to mommy.. muahaha..
*slips off to play MapleStory*

this would be the cursed tf. this photo was taken for my PoM project. well, all i can say is that certain sacrifices are necessary to make way for success. LOL!

2 nights before, i searched online for 2 proper Macro-related news articles and survived that midnight by 1 big mug of coffee. but looking at the size of that mug, it must have been equivalent to 2 normal mugs of coffee.
therefore i woke up a few hours afterwards yesterday morning with an empty and growling stomach with all that acid from the coffee and my stomach fluids swishing inside me.

last night, i rushed through my Macro news articles' analysis (no coffee this time, thank you very much!) and got distracted by my bf's call when i was done with my first article.
after which, i returned to my next analysis and prepared the cue cards for my PoM presentation this morning.
completed all that at 3am =.= and stupid enough, i went to surf the net until almost 4am. i do know what is good for me and what is not but it's just that being the fool i am, the latter is always chosen.
so i woke up after 3 hours of sleep (sleep?! more like a nap! bah..) went through my part on the bus and survived the presentation.
just when i thought that our group had the best presentation, TAN YAN SHAN had to go do a TALKING mime role-play.. =.= lol..
anyways, ours was entertaining, theirs was funny. ok, that's not really different haha..

given i only survived this morning on a cup of coffee, my stomach was threatening to growl while i was on the way home from parkway (to pay my handphone bill and buy my lunch).
BUT!! she makes it back to the homebase just in time! SAFE! lol.. don't mind me; the lack of proper rest is making me lamer than i already am.

so here i am, typing away on my laptop with a bowl of beef noodle gravy beside it. I FEEL SO SATISFIED!
finally! i can have a proper sleep tonight.

***i conclude that janice is the dumbest, most selfish, most pampered being on earth with absolutely not a single streak of common sense in that thick skull of hers.***

oh well..

i'm getting sick of myself. a torrent of angsty feelings inside of me and yet i had to act like the sun will shine forever and be the lame and weirdly funny person that i seemed to be.
contradicting don't you think so? i despise hypocrissy and yet that's what i've been doing all these time.

maybe i'll just appear for lessons one day with a bad temper because i've been feeling constipated.
and i could snap at anyone who gets on my wrong side just because i am pmsing (just a note: i don't have pms. really, i don't).
or i can finally burst in janice's face and tell her and there is only so much of her crap that i can take.
i could walk around and glare at everything and roll my eyes at everyone because i feel like crap or i just wanna be mean for that day.
then i can stop this act that i need to carry on with each passing day.

then again, i'm not that kind of person who'd put another's day on the line just because i feel shitty.
dammit! i hate myself.

word of the day?
WHATEVER.

parody for the trailer for Memoirs of a Geisha. click click?
funny crap. go watch it.

cats are getting more and more facinating to me as the days pass by. i think i'm gonna stock up on garfield comics.
damn, i think i'm in this too deep.

oh and phoenix lent me her memoirs of a geisha book. yay! now i have something to do during the study week.
no wait, i'm supposed to be studying during that week.
crap.

crap.. i still have my 2 MacroEcons articles to search for and i need to read up the later chapters because the topics that i'm doing on, the lectures aren't out yet!!
gah! this is what happens when the easy chapters are taken up by people who skive off, not wanting to think more and then not starting on their articles yet when we have to hand it up by the coming thursday.
yes, janice. AGAIN.

you know there used to be quizzes whereby people ask which sort of animal willyou wanna be in the next life or something along that line?
i used to choose birds or eagles because of the freedom as represented by the flight and i like that predator look in the eagles eyes. that is raw beauty, mind you.
but now, so many years later, thinking about all these things again, actually there will never be total freedon.
there aren't many places where birds can spread their wings now in this overly developed world anyways. plus many eagles are getting extinct. i wouldn't want to die so early. lol..

i think that cats are a good choice. stray or house cats, it doesn't matter.
if i feel like sleeping, i can just get into the shade and start snoozing.
if i want food i can just purr nicely at people walking by.
if i want a good tummy-scratch i can just act sweet and rub against someone's leg.
if someone's pissing me off i could just walk off or scratch his/her/its sorry ass.
i could just hiss at the world just because i feel like crap for that day.
i wouldn't need to give a damn about anything, anyone. it would all be about me, me, me and only me.
it will be then that i can treat myself better and not batter myself up just because i tend to put others before self.
i think i'm getting sick of myself and my sometimes "too-nice-to-everyone" ways.

got 16/18 for accounting2 quiz today when i didn't attend that chapter's lecture haha^_^
went to jill's place with tf after tutorial for our PoM project. the rest minus zy were already there. don't know what happened to that guy, he's been Missing In Action for quite a while. gonna start forgetting what he looks like lol..

took a few photos of ourselves as the homehelpers in our project and something funny happened when jill was taking phoenix's picture.
phoenix was supposed to be mopping the floor but just at the moment jill pressed the shutter, phoenix said "cheese!!" and the moment was captured by the digicam. haha.. hilarious, i tell you.

i don't understand what janice spent $3k for a laptop for when she wouldn't let us play a cd on it. when the 3 went to get mc for not attending school today, tf and i were debating whether we should just put the cd in without telling her and in the end, we slipped the cd in, listened for a while before taking it out in case janice might come back with the rest anytime soon.

according to jill, after tf and i left, janice was psychoing phoenix and her to use a video instead of role-playing, which was of course not in favour with the rest of us and her constant suggestions about it was driving jill crazy.

went to have dinner with my bf at parkway because my parents are away for my father's company dinner.
it's been quite long since we last had dinner outside, as complained by my bf. well, it's not my fault that i'm not allowed out past dinnertime without an appropriate school-related reason.
walked around the shopping centre before heading home.
i want that Memoirs of a Geisha book!!

oh, better go test that cd that i lent frm tf. woohoo~

nice. i'm gonna live for another 82-18=64 more years.
=.=
hopefully no more places on earth gets nuked or else i'll have nowhere to wander in the remaining 64 more years of my existence lol..

pauline, is my dear friend back in secondary school who had join the choir after a "emergency recuitment" in secondary 2 and then i had my chance to get to know her know more closely one rainy day after choir practice.
she is also the one who had christened me with this nickname of mine: chii. why? because she's indonesian and has her indonesian accent which prevented her from pronouncing my name properly thus made it sound somewhat like "chii".
"CHII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~ *glomps*" would be how she greets me majority of the time.
well, she isn't one to quiet down so we had our crazy times in and out of choir and then came the time after our o' levels: she was going to fly (not literally, of course) to the united states to study psychology in some university!! that lucky ass =.=
anyways, she came back this month for her holidays so she came over yesterday after her trip to parkway with her mother and she gave me bak gua regardless of my sore throat. thanks for remembering my fetish for spicy stuff. it wasn't the original flavour as i thought it to be, was what i realised when the stinging begun on my tastebuds due to the chilli flavouring.
oh well, i took a risk because my sore throat isn't fully healed yet.

anyhoo, i met with pauline and her friend amanda after my Principles of Management tutorial. went to have lunch at bugis, walked around for a bit, bought some snacks, snacked on them and we went to marina square. after which we bought tickets for Memoirs of a Geisha and sent amanda to the shopping centre entrance because she was meeting someone else.
eleanor (another person from our secondary school and pauline's ex-classmate) and another friend of theirs came and we watched the movie together.

damn nice!! whoever haven't saw it should go watch it!! i'm not gonna give any spoilers but i'll just leave y'all with 1 sentence:

Memoirs of a Geisha is a story about pedophilic love.

heck, i'm just joking. go watch it!!

went to school for mbs tutorial and screwed up yet another presentation.
we knew next to nothing about what we were supposed to present.. shows how organised and prepared my group is.
after the tutorial the rest went to pizza hut i guess, so i headed home because i just remembered that my wallet was lacking usable money.

i feel so angsty, gloomy, grey and.. empty all of a sudden.
maybe it's my not-yet-recovered throat that dries up 2 seconds after i put some fluid through it so i had to keep pouring water down that pipe of mine.
i just had this spur of the moment where i decidedly feel that i don't want to deal with anything. be it work, people, anything.

perhaps after all these while i had mistaken myself to be those "wanting to be around people" kind of person when actually i might prefer being left alone. it just takes too much energy to understand everyone else and then thinking for them whenever i wanted to say or do something, or to make sure that whatever i do doesn't put anyone in an awkward position (which ultimately only puts me in a less than perfect position).
sometimes i really envy those who could do things the way they like it as and whenever they wanted to yet not needing to care about any other thing.
and i wonder, why the hell does all these matter so much to me? why can't i live like those characters in stories, shows or movies? carefree, letting the rest of the world pass by and they would just roll their eyes at it and go, "like i give a damn about it."

and then it hits me: it's just a story.
dammit, life sucks big time. why was i even born.

maybe by tomorrow i'll decide that angsting takes too much energy out of me and hopefully, it will stop.

it had better not rain tomorrow or else i'm going to freeze because i have not changed my mind about wearing that skirt.
i have no idea what and how we're supposed to present the mbs project tomorrow.
=.=

and we somewhat finished the japanese role-play presentation thingy *whew*
such a miracle that we finished the whole discussion in only around 1 hour! oh and 1 of my group members is the elder sister of a junior of mine back in secondary school choir.
singapore is such a small country lol..

jill got a new computer!!
and she's gonna attempt to use msn messenger tonight!!
haha.. i am anticipating to see an alert for me to accept her contact into my list appearing at the top left corner of my screen.

yesterday:
went to marine parade library with my bf to do some studying. revised my accounting2 from the top.
started to get a little of my voice back.
fell asleep in my bf's house again, woke up with another bout of fever so he had to take care of me yet again.
phoenix called me about janice's $3k++ laptop's fried mother board. my bf had a good laugh about it.
this is what happens when you buy techie toys by looking at their colour and their possession of a fingerprint recognition system instead of their specifications.
man, i love my $1.5k++ compaq presario m2000.
planned to sleep at 9.45pm but my mother had to choose that time to come into my room, switch on the sharp, bright and white room light and nag about the unchanged bedsheets and the mess on my floor (yes, i have not cleared it and i don't quite care) until 11pm ++
damn her.
oh, and it was jt's birthday but she seems too busy to be able to do much about it and i'm too sick to do anything. YET.

today:
the sun has been shining for the 4th consecutive day. good. it'd better stay this way until wednesday because i intend to wear the skirt that i bought that day to my mbs presentation since it don't require us to wear formal.
the bus took forever to get to school today and by the time i got to my class on the 4th floor (people who know me should know that i rarely take the lift in school) i was coughing and panting. that ass janice still had the nerve to poke me non-stop and demand that i don't sleep when i'm resting my head on the table.
like, WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?!
this is one person who should have never been born.
seriously, everyone who came in contact with her since the moment she was conceived should be quarantined. that sounded a little extreme but you know what? i don't care!
my bf wanted to slap her upside-down and i don't care!! i might even cheer him on!

i'm know i'm evil and i'm darn proud of it.

3: flu
these are the times when you feel that you can never have enough tissue to use and after every hour that you consistently blow your nose plus all that extra rubbing, you look like rudolph the red-nose reindeer being almost half the planet away from it's home.

2: fever
ah.. these are the days when no matter how thick your clothes are and no matter how many layers you wear, it still feels like winter regardless of the season you are having now. you feel sore all over and even your scalp hurts when you touch your hair. plus the heater in your bathroom never felt warm enough. and people would freeze you half to death by trying to put ice packs on your neck or stomach. oh well, considering the fact that my fever is gone, i shall forgive my bf for attempting murder by turning me into a block of ice.

1: sore throat
worst case senario? your throat hurts each time you swallow anything. be it saliva, water, food, the works. whenever you sneeze, cough, any action that causes air to pass through your throat or just barely breezing by, it feels as if your throat would split or it would start to bleed. worst of the worst? you lost your voice. can't talk, can't call, and the only way to communicate is by typing in your handphone, mouthing, or whispering.

dammit! i want my voice back! this is killing me!!

oh and i had my accounting class test this morning.
gonna fail pretty badly. lots of blanks here and there T^T

left the remaining mbs project for janice to complete. friggin pissing me off. didn't complete her part of the work and i had to spend 1 hour plus to complete it for her.
too sick to do my part so my bf offered to help. haha.. gotta thank him for that, although he couldn't complete it (janice can do it anyways. if i get to do what she didn't complete, why can't she reciprocate?). plus, he walked me to the clinic last night.
haha.. you da best, ok?
see, i praised you on my blog haha.. ^_^

this is so crappy.. i feel sick. my body feels sore. my head felt heavy. i think i have a sore throat coming on. and added to that, i feel a little feverish!
ARGH!!

and i still have the msAccess project to finish =.=
all i want to do is just curl up in my bed and sleep the whole day through T^T

jill is being mean on her blog. oh well, i guess janice isn't very much well-liked after all haha..

got back MBS (the computer thingy) today.
sucks totally. failed by 2.5 marks. some lucky person got 30/50 huh..
jill failed, which was predicted by all of us, including herself.
oh and janice had higher marks than me. AGAIN.
26.5.
marginal pass but.. GAH!
whateverrr..
at least the tutor believed that i will be able to do better the next time *sniff* such a nice guy, pointed out a question that i did much better than the rest of the people.
isn't much of an encouragement but.. oh well, it's better than none.

i simply don't understand why there could be people who just had to wake everyone who is falling asleep during lectures.
for some unknown reason, i felt very tired when Stats lecture began and so i rested my head on my hand and decided to have a few seconds of shut-eye and that irritating ass had to wake me up so that she could play hangman and then complain that i always give difficult questions.

hello? it wasn't difficult at all if you would just use your common sense to judge a word structure instead of just randomly guessing letters. having a B for o' level english is no excuse, common sense doesn't rely on intelligence.
if you kept complaining that playing hangman with me was no fun, go find someone else then and stop disturbing me when i can't control the slumber bug.
and there was absolutely no need for you to literally bang on my table when i was having a short recharging session during the 5 minutes break.
wtf is wrong with you? can't you tell that i'm tired? do you see me doing the same to you when you're tired?

crap. and now all my assignments are caving in on me.
BA2 class test on saturday, japanese presentation role-play script 1st draft to be handed in next wednesday, MacroEcons reports to finish by this weekend, msAccess presentation next wednesday and i have to complete the msAccess project by tomorrow so phoenix and jill can complete their part.
if you knew that there are some information that needed to be removed from the database, go ahead and delete it, instead of just wasting 1 day to tell us that "we have to delete a few information".
how stupid can you get? if not for your inability to comprehend such straightforward things, i could have been doing my part of the project now and the whole thing assignment could be completed much earlier!

GAH! if only i could just squash janice right under my foot.
i would squish and stomp and jab my heel into her and grate the bottom of my shoe on her overly-protected skin and listen to her howl in pain about how much damage i am doing to her complexion.
oh what? you had a complexion in the first place?
now that's a surprise of a century.

shouldn't have let my bf went through my moodiness with me.
feeling kinda guilty right now..

=.=

i am just so tempted to dig out my winter clothes and stuff myself in them for the rest of the month.

not that i don't like rainy days, plus all the stuff that people talk about "rain making people gloomy" doesn't apply to me.
i like rain, rain don't make me depressed. it can rain 24/7 for the rest of my life and i wouldn't mind, only if it doesn't make my jeans and shoes wet.
sounds kinda impossible but, yeah..

wanted to do a bit of my MacroEcons report/project this morning but my bf said that studying straight away in the morning is a little boring so we went to e-zone first and i watched him play bomberman.
it had started to rain before we came out of parkway 1 hour later and we went to macd since libraries are closed on public holidays.

pretty much wasted my morning and afternoon away..
1 set of the newspapers that i bought last month didn't have any article that i could use while the other set was quite useless because i forgot which topics had janice covered in her reports and she didn't reply my sms until my bf and i finally decided to leave mac at around 4pm (he was getting restless and i wasn't in the mood to do any work).
=.=

so the only thing i completed was reading deathnote book 9 (japanese comic) and a few card games on my laptop, which i had brought out again.
=.=
wasted. so totally wasted.

my bf wanted to play pool so we went and for once i won every game.
impossible? of course it was impossible.
why did that happen? well.. on the last game (supposedly "last") he decided that the winner wins all for today so i took up the challenge. but, being quite inaccurate most of the time, lost that game so i requested for a rematch.
and so i won de rematch but my bf wanted re-rematch, which he won so i asked for a last (really, the last) re-rematch.
technically, i won it because the white ball went in after ball 8, but. BUT, it don't feel like a win because he kept giving me chances here and there despite me telling him not to do that.
i wanna win my own game fair and square!

grr.. you better don't do that the next time i play pool with you.
=_=* (@#$%^&..)

***actually.. i forgot how many rematches there were.. lol..***

why can't she get better marks than you? maybe she's better at these topics than you? maybe she studied better than you instead of just mugging blindly?
that statement she made just goes to show what kind of competitive ass she is.

anyways, i realised that my entries seem to be bitching about her almost everyday =.=
i really shouldn't let her get to me. i'm already trying very hard to not lose my temper whenever she does things or make ill comments irresponsibly even if some are not directed at me.
hell, i'm protective of the people around me and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.

crap.. i guess that somehow she manages to mess up my life almost everyday all these while.

the moment i logon to my msn messenger, she asks "what are you doing now?"
umm.. flying to the moon?
for goodness' sake everyone knows i play MapleStory 80% of the time when my laptop is turned on.
use your common sense, lady.

on a lighter note..
wa~haha!! i'm so excited about my new specs. gonna be ready by thursday! woohoo!!
it's dark green this time and half-framed, plus the part of the specs that holds up the specs from the frame all the way to the end has this marble-looking colour. sort of dark jade..
ahh.. so nice *drools*
jt once said that when i wear framed specs i look nerdy while my frameless specs make me look like an "auntie" so what does my new specs make me?
a nerdy auntie? lol.. i am amazed at my lameness =.=

hmm.. planned to do my MacroEcons newspaper report in the library this morning but ended up reading a chinese-translated-korean-novel instead haha..
i am such a procrastinator and i'm so proud of it ^_^
my bf overslept so he came to the library half an hour after me instead of walking me over like we planned the night before.
hah, i already predicted that this would happen haha..

well, all thanks to the rain that kept pouring this few days, we were stuck in parkway after we had our lunch.
and i thought the raining season was over =.=
anyways, the rain got lighter for a while so we crossed the road and went to Mcdonald's to study (he's the one studying.. i was still reading the library book haha..). saw an ex-colleague from e-zone but now she works as a floor manager in mac.
wahaha.. so nice of her to give me a little.. hehheh ^_^

in the midst of his studying, my reading, and him fiddling with my laptop (T^T my poor laptop was hit 3 times today T^T aww.. my poor baby T^T), i started asking my bf some things that suddenly came into my mind which had aroused my curiousity.
so we started talking a lot and began asking each other questions haha..
don't know why but it felt to me as if it had been a long time since we last had enough time to have a good conversation face to face.
well, i'm sure the busy days will pass.
hmm.. someday..

oh and clar (a shorter version of her name, clarissa, that ex-colleague who is now working in mac, that we call her by) came to "disturb" us and said that my bf's iRiver H10 is ugly haha..
still missed the times when all of us were still working in e-zone T_T

ah! i remembered that thing that i forgot when my bf and i were still talking about stuff while he walked me home this evening!
it's the voice, the voice!!
haha.. i have no idea why but i like baritone voices. not too squeaky (i can't stand guys who sound like ducks =.=) but not too deep either.
must be that choir nerve acting on me ^_^
oh and have another thing to add to the list: laughter. your laughter.
what? it sounds nice to me, that don't make me any weirder than i already am.

*to people who may not know wth i was talking about in the above paragraph, it's fine. only 1 person other than me is needed to understand it anyways*

well, i'm quite satisfied with the final look, minus the leather chain thingy.. dammit.. will someone get it for my birthday? *smiles innocently*
even if it don't look punk, like what we (phoenix, jill, janice and i) planned to get, it is still what i wouldn't have worn if someone set me free in a shopping centre with $1 million to spare (i am quite skeptical of people doing that anyways).

well, someone must be expecting me to write something about him.
for one, i'm not so mean as to complain about my own bf on my own blog now, am i?
oh wait, i have done that quite a few times already :P

haha.. i'll just cut it short ok? since i've already told you how i felt about this personally.
for someone as weird and mentally and emotionally isolated most of the time as me, i would have a lot to muse about everything.
people, things that happen around me, the world, the things people are doing to the world and of course, myself. i cant possibly have lived like this for near 18 years and not know what kind of person i am.
maybe i don't really fall into a category of a certain kind of styreotypical teenager.
maybe i like to suddenly decide to do a certain thing just for the fun of it or because i wanted to do something that i have already been thinking about for a long time like that ear-piercing thing that would never happen (not that i mind it anymore anyways).
no matter how much i might be that in-between, neither-here-nor-there person, i know i am not one who follows what the rest of the world is doing.

just because girls have started smoking don't make me want to be part of that group.
just because half the world (or more) have tried bungee jumping don't interest me in that.
just because 90% of the girls on the campus have forgotten about the existence of sports shoes or wear only high heels to school don't make me abandon my beloved converse all star for some blister-inducing heels.
i am not a follower. i know what i want. the rest of the world can make fun of me for not being one of them and i wouldn't even give a damn. i'll just have a laugh at them for being identical while i'm the unique one.
i do the things i do, just because. there will never be anything more to that. i believe in individuality and not just blindly following everyone else.

punk don't turn people into social loafers.
rock culture don't turn people into destructive monsters.
the way a person carries him/herself and the things he/she does defines their character. a person's character isn't judged by just the tangible items they possess. it's more that that.
hell, i look like a nerd but i listen to japanese rock. i seem mild but i'm sadistic in nature while cynicism and sarcasm are my poison =.=
styreotyping people get you nowhere. it'll just offend anyone else who don't do half the things that you do which you think is normal.

hmm.. this is kinda long in the end..
oh well, hopefully this registers in his head this time. i don't want to repeat myself everytime i make a decision for myself.

well, i finally had a subject with higher results than janice! BizAccounting2!!
haha.. at the subject that she's best at too wahaha~
i'm sure she's feeling very frustrated and pissed about this.

and it turns out i wasn't the only one who couldn't stand janice.
sometimes phoenix wouldn't even bother to talk to her and sometimes jill would just let her handphone ring and not pick up when janice calls her.
plus we found out that janice always backstabs people. i'm sure she'd already said things about me and of course about phoenix, jill.. that i'm not too sure..
well, we only have less than half a semester together anyways so i'll just stay friendly although my internal OS was going *GAH! just kill her already!!*
plus all of my project groups have her in it..

jt, this proves that i was not mean about janice since there are people from our clique who can't stand her too.

that BA2 tutor of ours is being an asshole.
dr. william tan, who is paralysed from waist down because of polio, came to our school to challenge a world guiness record to run (in a wheelchair sort of device) around the field for 24 hours.
and that crappy tutor of ours questioned his purpose of doing so, saying that there was nothing to prove by running and that this was just a scheme to get famous as this would be reported stuff.
what is so wrong about someone who does what he/she wanted to do? why must every action be supported by a right and tangible reason?
personally, i have taken this kind of shit before and this made me very intolerable towards those who question others who do the things of their passion.

"wah, so cynical!" i said quite loudly in class after he had finished criticising dr. tan and dr. goh (who had climbed mt everest while his wife was giving birth in singapore. hello? it's a passion! any sensible spouse would have supported the other if they wanted to pursue something important to them!).
"was that too loud?" i asked janice, loudly. she nods, a little shocked that i would do this.
"well, so sorry but that was deliberate," i shrugged and stated, loudly, yet again.

what's there to prove by running?
this is of course something that had significant value to him so what was there to prove? obviously he had something to prove. if not to others then himself. if there was nothing to prove, there would be no motivation for dr. tan to run continuously for 24 hours!
if you don't know a person well enough, you won't know what really mattered to him and you have no right to judge the things he do!
and to think that grown ups are more matured and think better than inexperienced teenagers like us.
why don't you just go into some secluded area and shrivel up and die while you contemplate your meaningless existence??

sheesh!

oh and i'm gonna get a skirt this time round for chinese new year.
going punk! haha.. nah, not extreme punk but yeah, the essence is there lol..
and no, this was not to follow some stupid trend just because phoenix suggested that we should all dress differently from how we usually do for 1 day.

i do have a mind of my own, if you hadn't noticed it already!

we got back our Principles of Management term test paper today.
wahaha~ i passed!! for someone who had a D for OrgBehaviour last semester, i passed my PoM term test!!
well, it's good that for the papers that were returned until now, there were no failing grades for me yet *whew*

the irritating thing was that janice had 32 while the rest of us (phoenix, jill, tf) had 26-27.5 and she had to act so shocked that she passed. mind you, passed, not about the fact that she got 30-over.
how please, how fake can you get?
"oh my gosh! i passed! i didn't study and i actually passed!!"
yeah sure, go on about it. you don't see the rest of us having a seizure just because we passed.
i was like this close to just explode in her face and shout at her so that she could shut the f up 'coz she's f-ing irritating me.
rare, very rare. because you see, it didn't even bug me a bit when i had a D for OB last semester while ky got a Z and both of us didn't study much that time.

seriously, she could just say that she's shocked that she had high marks instead of going on and on about her "passing" the test.
grr..

and i'm still debating with myself whether i should wear a skirt this time round for chinese new year.
not that i didn't do that in the past years, it's just that i had totally stopped wearing skirts ever since i graduated from secondary school. yes, it is that bad.
maybe i should get a skirt, just for a change.
then again, majority of my relatives had moved overseas, meaning most of my maternal grandmother's siblings and my great-grandmother are not in singapore anymore. even my uncle (my father's brother) hadn't visited us since 1999.
wait, or was it 2000? great, i can't even remember. how serious could this get?
anyways, this situation don't really give my family a point to visit my great-grandmother's house during chinese new year and therefore, in turn, don't give me much encouragement to buy new clothes this chinese new year.

is it just me, or is chinese new year getting lonelier and lonelier each year?
i think it's just me.

couldn't sleep last night.
must have been too used to sleeping at 1 am and waking up 9-10 hours later during the term break and didn't adjust back to the cycles of a school day just yet T^T
felt so groggy waking up at 7am today..

bored bored bored bored bored..
=.=

it seriously feels like a tsunami to me.
so uncomfortable.
i'm gonna listen to janice and cut myself off tea for the time being.

bored bored bored!!!
super boredom!!
maple here i come!!

another expected thing was that janice skipped the lecture in the morning, contrary to what she swore to yesterday that she would turn up for lecture.
despite my many morning calls (of which the 5th call woke her up), she could still sleep back and when i called her after i reached school, she just woke up!
wtf is the meaning of this?!
if people can wake up after 5 hours of sleep or less, why couldn't she? and it was worse still that she had promised not to miss the lecture, although i saw this coming anyway.

anyways, this is the last semester i will ever be in the same class as her so i shouldn't be so agitated about her lack of commitment towards "skippable" classes just because the system isn't like secondary school anymore.
rather, i should just look forward to the semester exam because i wouldn't have to see her anymore after that!!
woohoo!!~

bitchings aside, there was a dragonfly in our stats class!!
our classroom is on the 4th floor of the business school which meant that there are no openings for anything to fly in and yet insects kept doing just that =.=
must have flown in through the external staircase.
that thing freaked janice, jill and me out totally.
it was hovering around the back of the classroom where we were sitting and the sound of its 4 wings fluttering above us was scaring the hell out of me and disturbed jill badly.
was i ever glad to get out of that classroom.

i had an A for stats by the way, 47/50
so happy^_^
what got to me was that janice had higher than me.
even though i am not those competitive nutcases, this is one person that i must crush under my feet for treating me less than a friend.
*MUAHAHAHA~*
even friends who like to bully me treat me much better.
yes, ky, i am talking about you. although i doubt that you would read my blog anyways.

and to think that the clouds looked so dark and heavy when i was going home..
it is just so damn bright now, and the rays are stabbing in through my window =.=

nevertheless, we completed much of the work by the time janice's mother finished cooking lunch for us, which was tasted quite nice i would say, given that it was only fried bee hoon and that other than the bee hoon and vegs, there were only fish cake and luncheon meat.
why? because dear jill is still on abstinence. from seafood (other than fish) and eggs, that is.

we watched Herbie: Fully Loaded while we ate but had to stop after the first disk as we had to carry on with the work because (surprise surprise) jill was going to buy a computer!

jill, the computer idiot was going to buy a computer! how shocking was that?
sounded weird enough coming out of her mouth when i talked to her last night.

anyways, jill left soon after and phoenix and lennard went too, leaving just janice and me to clear up whatever work that we had completed this morning.
doesn't really make a big difference whether it was just 2 of us or if the whole group was present because most of the work was done by janice and me.

why? let's see..
jill and phoenix were fighting while they did their part of the work and jill is a computer idiot (we were doing the project using microsoft access) while on the other side of the table, lennard was irritating janice by touching pratically everything on her dining table and complaining that he was bored and that he needed a cigarette break

wth is it with smoking??
it damages your lungs and makes your breathe, like, a gazillion times worse than it already was.
why don't you just go lick the road which is full of tar, like the chemicals in your cigarette, and don't pollute the air around you?

ok i'm straying from the subject, but whateverrr..
all in all, i would say that the progress was actualy quite good considering that this was only the first meeting we had for this project.
if only every other projects would be this smooth-flowing.

oh and janice baked the whole class this cookie-with-cornflake thingy.
not bad not bad. ate 2 of it and shared it with my bf when he walked me home this evening.
brought the remaining ones home for the rest of my family, if they even bothered to notice that i was sharing anything with them.

hey, i did a mental calculation of how many i could eat just so i could have enough to share with my bf and my dysfunctional family who is at present ignoring my existence, so i am not that selfish as i thought i sometimes was.

i'm sure most people had a fun one like countdown and stuff with a whole lot of other friends.
me?
let's see.. the first person i talked to in 2006 was my bf and it was through the phone at midnight.
the rest of the day was spent watching movies at his place.

we rented The Island and Mr. and Mrs. Smith.
i told him to watch Mr. and Mrs. Smith first while we eat lunch at the same time but no~ he put The Island first.

for those who haven't caught that show yet (which i think is quite rare) please don't watch it while you eat because you see, there are some scenes that might upset your appetite or make you throw out whatever that you just ate.

of course as usual, i'm not affect.
hey i watch documentaries on how predators hunt and devour their prey while eating all the time in my secondary school days.

nice show, The Island.
kinda reminds me of The Matrix just that the people are actually clones/insurance policies for the rich who can afford one so that when their body parts or organs fail, the institude can harvest healthy ones for them and there won't be a risk of the system rejecting the new part.
ewan mcgregor is a very good actor, i would say, so was scarlett johansson but the only bad part was that she don't have a good shouting voice.
that can be ignored anyway so no big deal about that.

there were no subtitles for both vcds so half the time i had no idea what the people were talking about in Mr. and Mrs. Smith.
but still, it was entertaining to see a couple trying to kill each other. literally.

and it is raining all over again. getting friggin cold again.
my toes are freezing already T-T

oh and my website is open!! although only the scribbles part is available because i underestimated the time needed to copy and paste my story paragraph by paragraph into the html codings.
yar and i was slacking for a bit for the past few days, i'll admit.
but hey, at least there is 1 part available.

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